Courage in the Game 2 (Discontinued)

His side of everything

Chen POV (Exo)

I laid on back on the bed in the hotel room that I was in. My mind was filled with Hunter. It would never leave him. I hated myself for the way that I had been acting towards him. But, in truth, I was deathly scared of falling in love again. The last time I had been with a girl, it had almost killed me. I loved her so completely, but she was just using me. An almost five-year relationship and it was gone. I should have seen it when she kept messing up, but I gave her chance after chance. I should have ended it there, but I couldn't. Then I found out she was engaged to some guy that she apparently loved and was screwing. She told me she was just using me as something to do because she got bored. And she wanted a stab at the money I was earning while being a trainee. I was in depression for almost two years. Then Hunter confessing to me, the memories just came flooding back. For the rest of the two months, I couldn't bring myself to speak to him or even look at him. I hated what it was doing to him, but I couldn't shake my fear. So instead of risking facing him, I departed on my own when Exo M landed in Korea again. And I hadn't gone back to the dorm at all. I just wore what clothes I had brought back with me from China. 

I groaned and rolled over onto my stomach. I was getting nowhere just thinking about the past like this. But, in defense, it had really hurt. Her hurting me as she did was a curveball that a poor batter never saw coming in the bottom of the ninth inning. He doesn't hit the ball and his team loses the game. That was just about how I felt. So it was no shock that I was so very scared of loving again. I growled in anger at myself and sat up. I grabbed a pillow and threw it across the room. Why couldn't I just forget the past and be able to love again? AISH! I wanted nothing more really then to actually be able to fall in love again. But that girl had wrecked it all for me. A tear leaked out of my eye and I fell back on the bed. 

Lay POV (Exo)

I just sat there silently in the  VIP room that Hunter was in. Xiumin was over checking on him, but I couldn't bring myself to join him. My thoughts were actually on Chen. I pondered what could have made him act like that? I felt like there was something I was forgetting. Something he had told me in the past and I had helped him with it. But what the heck was it? I was snapped out of my thoughts by Xiumin sitting on my lap again. 

"You look deep in thought," he commented. 

"I feel like there's something I'm forgetting," I confessed. 

"Oh geez. It's probably making your bed or something like that."

I pouted. "It's not anything like that. It's something Chen once told me and I helped him with it. I think it was really important too."

"Too bad you can't remember what it was."

"I really wish I could remember it."

Xiumin didn't say anything more. He just curled against me. I could feel him messing with my hair. But my thoughts eventually fell back to what Chen had told me again. I really did want to remember what he had told me. This was starting to get irritating! While everyone else interacted with others, I just sat there in thought. After almost an hour, I finally remembered. Yes! I remembered! Chen had told me just before we debuted about the girl that had smashed his heart. He really truly loved her, but she was just using him. And what's worse was he was going to ask her to marry him. He was that in love with her. But then he found her with a guy. Now she was supposedly engaged to this guy and was just using Chen. She left Chen beyond broken and he had depression for the first few months after our debut. Now what had happened with Hunter completely made sense! Chen had told me that he would never love again. He was too scared too. Chen didn't want to be hurt like that again. Something warm pressing against my lips snapped me back to the present. I knew it was Xiumin's kiss so I had nothing to worry about. 

"You were zoning out again. I called your name at least twenty times," he told me. 

I looked at him. "I finally remembered."

He sat up straight. "What is it?"

"I know why Chen was acting the way he was."

"Well out with it."

"Okay. Chen was really hurt by a girl just before we debuted. They had been together for about five years and Chen loved her completely. He was even thinking of asking her to marry him. I had gone out with him more than once to look at rings. But then he saw her with a guy. Supposedly, she was engaged to that guy and was just using Chen. She told him she was bored and wanted his money. I'd never seen anything break Chen like she did. He could with stand hours of dance practice, but this made him sink into depression. Just after we debuted, Chen and I were talking late one night. Everyone else was passed out, but us. He told me all about her and something more. Chen also said that he would never bring himself to be able to love again. He was too scared to get hurt. So Chen was acting like that towards Hunter out of a deep-seeded fear," I explained. 

When I finally shut up, I realized everyone was listening to me. Why didn't I notice this while I was talking? Maybe because I thought I was only talking to Xiumin. 

"So where is he now?" Niel bravely asked. 

Kris shook his head. "We have no idea. He didn't come back to the dorms with us. And as far as we know, he hasn't been there at all." 

"So we have a missing Chen and Hunter fighting for his life?" Rose asked. 

"That's just great," Changjo added before Chunji was able to shush him. 

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