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Falling apart

Pairing: Ethan x depressed! Reader.

Summary: (Y/n) is at a bad position in her life, she is hurting and there is no one to help her. She then did the only thing she could do, take her own life. Can Ethan save her?

Warning(s): angst, blood, DEPRESSION AND SUICIDE!!

Words: 800

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I sat on the ground in the kitchen while my boyfriend is out with his friends. I look at the knife that was once clean now stained with my crimson coloured blood. I slowly lift the knife to my stomach to once again cut myself, this time not on the wrist but where I know I will not see the light of the next morning

As I slowly took the knife closer and closer to my stomach I remembered my life. How I was slowly falling apart and how no one noticed. I remembered a few months ago when I broke down in tears after trying to get Ethan on the phone but he was busy. I needed someone to talk to and I only trust him, that was the first time I cut myself and definitely not the last. I remember his soft lips on mine as he would kiss me when I was sad, how he would cuddle with me in the night.

I remember our first date. He took me out to the park for a date under the stars, I love space. I would always tell Ethan how when I died I hope I landed on one of the stars. While we were under the stars Ethan moved closer to me, I looked at him with a smile, he smiled back. We leaned closer and closer until our lips met. The kiss made me feel fireworks.
That was almost 3 years ago. And it just suddenly happened when I felt like my life was not needed on this earth. I fell apart slowly, and no one noticed because I always had that smile that everyone loved. Little did they know it was fake

I felt a tear slowly ran down my face, how did this happen, I just wanted to end everything and I couldn't do it while Ethan was there. I loved him to much. I plunged the knife into my stomach feeling the pain go through my body, but it was never so bad as what I felt in my heart.

"(Y/n)?!" I heard Ethan yell

But it soon faded away

*Ethan's POV*

I open the door to our apartment. I had a feeling something was wrong. I walked into the kitchen to see the love of my life in a pool of her own blood. "Y/N)?!" I yell as I run up to her. I sat on the ground pulling (y/n) life less body closer to mine. I cried kissing her forehead. "I'm sorry (y/n)". I said crying onto her body. I grab my phone and called 911. I told them about her and they came as quickly as possible. They pulled her away from me onto a stretcher, trying to stop the bleeding. I jumped into the ambulance after the paramedics. I took her hand in mine kissed it and told her " I love you (y/n)"

*TIME SKIP Still Ethan's POV"

I was walking in the street, in a blue shirt and some maroon jeans. I needed to look presentable. I was nervous I could feel my hands sweating as I was walking. I had a red rose in my hand and a little black box in my pocket. There was happiness going through my body as I thought of her answer. I've been planing this for months. I walked over to where (y/n) was.

I stood in front of her with a giant smile on my face as I got on one knee
I started talking
"(Y/n) your the one that loved me when I was doing stupid stuff, when I was making mistakes. You were always there when I had rough time recoding videos, not getting enough sleep, or not eating. You make me so happy and I know you will never stop, its been 4 years since we met, and I can't think of any other person to ask this. Will you please marry me (y/n)?" I asked. Then my smile dropped

As I remembered gravestones don't talk. I started crying. My head I'm my hands

"I'm sorry I didn't see you falling apart" I whispered.

A/n: Umm hey guys.
Please if you think suicide is the only answer please think again. Come talk to me, I'll help as much as I can! I just want to make you smile again, so don't ignore the feelings because it will eat away at you!
Bye guys

~Anti🍁