𝐌𝐀𝐑𝐕𝐄𝐋𝐎𝐔𝐒 ━━ marvel imagines

━ HAPPY LITTLE PILL ( Steve Rogers )

Warning: drug and alcohol

In the crowd, alone

And every second passing reminds me I'm not home

Bright lights and city sounds are ringing like a drone

Unknown, unknown

It was dusk in New York City as you walked around the time square, the city that never sleeps. Cars' horns were honking in the distance. You had your mind thinking and wandering off to space, your gaze on the floor. You continued to walk in wander.

Oh, glazed eyes, empty hearts

Buying happy from shopping carts

Nothing but time to kill

Sipping life from bottles

Tight skin, bodyguards

Gucci down the boulevard

Cocaine, dollar bills

And...

You were at home, wasting on a bottle of vodka. Not wanting to remember the memories of you and Steve today from the past. You started buying illegal drugs from depression and anger. Your body was fatigue and in pain, and your muscles strained. You took a drag of your smoke, puffing out white clouds of smoke in the room. People don't understand you; your emotions aren't bought to the emotion store, but it just flash abruptly in your nerves, mind, and heart.

My happy little pill

Take me away

Dry my eyes

Bring color to my skies

My sweet little pill

Tame my hunger

Light within

Numb my skin

You were starting to lose hope as you continued to drag on your smoke and drank more vodka. You stood up, going to the bathroom, opening the mirror cabinet and taking the bottle of stress reliever pills. You were addicted to it, making you happy every time you drank a pill or two. Your eyes moisten, crying from all the pain and suffering you're having. You stood in front of the window, seeing purplish-yellow skies as the sun sets. Your stomach started growling but the pill affected your hunger.

Like a rock I float

Sweat and conversations seep into my bones

Four walls are not enough

I'll take a dip into the unknown, unknown

You lay alone on your bed, the sheets curled around your waist to your thighs, then to your legs. You took out white puff of smoke in your mouth, putting out the inner pain. You put your forearm on your eyes, thinking of many things why the universe hates you.

A knock occurred on your door, causing you to groan and sauntered to the door. You open the door a bit. You saw Steve. You tilt your head to the side, puffing out the smoke in you. "Have you been smoking Y/N?" Steve asked, concerned. "What does it look like I'm doing?" You said, your tone in anger and sadness. "Can I come in?" He asked. You opened the door widely to show him it's allowed to come in. Steve kicked an empty vodka bottle by accident. "Sorry if it's a bit messy, I haven't fixed the place yet." You said, slumping down on the couch, taking another drag of your cigarette. Once the last puff of smoke came out, you threw it down and stepped it with your heel to out the smoke. "So what do you want to talk about?" You asked. Steve then sat beside you on the couch. "What happened in the tower, I didn't mean that." He said. "What? Kissing Nat when I have my back turned on you? Oh, sure, that, no problem, at all." You retorted with the edge of jealousy and hurt in it. "Y/N, please, I want you back, I tried to push her away but she didn't." Steve exclaimed. "Tried? Why not do it Steve. I loved you and you do that. Am I not good enough like Nat?" You exclaimed, standing up from the abruptly tone. Your eyes were glazed. He sat there, his words choking in his throat, burning from all the words that are trying to escape his throat.

Oh, glazed eyes, empty hearts

Buying happy from shopping carts

Nothing but time to kill

Sipping life from bottles

Tight skin, bodyguards

Gucci down the boulevard

Cocaine, dollar bills

And...

You took another bottle of vodka, putting it against your lips. Sipping down the alcohol made a burning sensation as it flows down to your throat. Then Steve took the vodka out of your hands and set it on the coffee table. You scowled at him, trying not to cry again.

My happy little pill

Take me away

Dry my eyes

Bring color to my skies

My sweet little pill

Tame my hunger

Light within

Numb my skin

You walked to the window, seeing the time stopto dusk. Then Steve came from behind, wrapping his arms around your arms,planting kisses on the crook of your neck. Your body started to tremble,including your bottom lip; you bit it to stop from the shaking. You pulledaway. "Steve, please...just stop. I...I can't." You retorted. You sat back on thesofa, trying to take away the past pain that is coming back to you. "I'm reallysorry Y/N, I just wanted you more than anyone. I love you okay, and that willnever change." Steve explained. Your eyes moisten, but your body stayed firmand your face blank. Your arms folded against your chest tightly. But the tearswouldn't stop trickling down. You sobbed. Steve sat beside you, grabbing yourchin on his hand. His thumbs rubbed the fresh tears trickling down. "I'm reallysorry. I love you more than anything." Steve muttered. Then Steve pressed hislips against yours, passionate and lovingly, he missed your lips against hisand his hands intertwine on yours. Steve leaned in, causing you to be underSteve as the kiss continues. He started parting his lips on yours; missing theday you and Steve first kissed. "I love you Y/N, remember that." He smiled."Love you too Steve." You muttered.