The 3rd wheel lovers

chapter 10

I'll never forgive leo for dying. it happened so quickly i didn't even have time to understand why. its been 6 months since we had the talk when leo thought we were kidnapped. I did get to tell him about the hole vampire thing about 5 months ago. it all seems so long ago, yet so close. i can still remember the night of the funeral as if its happening now.

-flashback-

i walked into the room were his coffin was held. it was cold and smelled of death. the room was quiet big but i still felt trapped. the sound of sniffling cut through the silence. All i saw was blobs of color and black because my eyes were fogged by my salty tears. My heart was physically felt like someone ripped it out of my chest threw it on the ground and was tap dancing on it. My throat was sore and felt raw from trying to hold back the tears. My nose was burning and every breath i took seemed to suffocate me.

"is here okay?" edward asked his voice filled with pity and concern. i just nodded scared i would brake if i opened my mouth. we filled up a full row. i looked up front where leo was. He almost looked like he was on an alter. Pictures surrounded him along with candles that cut through the darkness. I looked up at the tall ceiling in attempt to stop the memories to come and the tears. My mind started to work like an unstoppable sad movie on the television. I remembered when he asked me out, when he first met my family i chuckled through my tears so quietly that only edward and renesmee could hear. the both gave me a confused 'whats wrong face' but i ignored them and continued the memories. i remembered the look of fear when Edward caught him trying to kiss me outside after the dance. I   rememebered when i wore this drress. It was his favorite he said. I remebered that fall afternoon while we were in the feild and we just layed there looking up at the sky trying to find shaped out of the clouds. I loved that day, it was so simple. later on we read the fault in our stars and cried together for hours. I remember when i told him about the vampire thing. We were actually at the movies and he might have yelled a choice word. he was a little scared after that but he got over. I remembered everything. all the late night talks together, the sweet little side comments, us spnding time together. i remebered everything that every happened. Tears freely flowed down my face drowning my flesh. I perced my lips tightly together and attemted to wipe my eyes. but the kept comming. I zoned out most of the funeral until the the end when we could see the body before the closed it. I was the last one and im glad. i grabbed his hand and sobbed.

"please just please i know you wouldn't do this. you were happy you would never kill yourself i know you wouldn't. i love you too much. just come back. say the code word we shared. remeber that? when we were playing that one game and our safe wordwas chicken nugget? tell me chicken nugget please, for me!" i sobbed into his corspe.

---funeral stuff and lots of tears------

----back to future----

i layed down on the bottom of the forest floor, in a small patch of flowers. The trees creating a cannopy over me. tears were slowly dripping from my eyes. out of the sky blew a scrap of paper. i reached up and snatched it. two words were written in chicken scratch on that paper. my salvation. I ran home with joy and those words in his writting

chicken nugget