unexpected love - joshler

his doll

tw// rape, abuse, and self harm, blood
as they drove through DC the cherry petals were everywhere. "it's so beautiful and calming" tyler said, "totally..a-also there is parade tomorrow, wanna check it out" josh asked, "sure what type" tyler smiled, "pride" josh replied, "fuck yes, i loVE BEING GAY" tyler shouted, he stuck his torso thru the sun roof, "I FEEL REALLY GAY TODAY! AND MY BOYFRIENDS REALLY FUCKEN HOT!!" tyler shouted with his arms up, smiling really big, he looked around at people a lot of them were smiling and laughing, "you're going to hell!" some random dude shouted at tyler, "fuCK YOU TOO" tyler said back smiling and waving. he saw two guys holding hands, "HI YOU GUYS ARE REALLY CUTE, IM GAY TOO" he yelled, they laughed "THANK YOU YOURE A CUTIE!". josh smiled. 'i'm happy tylers being happy with himself, but he's hiding something..' josh thought.

they checked into the hotel and went to their room, "what was that in the car?" josh laughed, "i dunno" tyler said wrapping his arms around josh, "im glad your happy with yourself" josh kissed tyler, "well.." tyler let go of him and sat down on the bed, josh looked at him with a confused look, "i have to show you something" tyler said taking his pants off, "u-um hehe" josh awkwardly laughed, he pulled down his underwear down so you see his hips, there were scars and cuts, josh stared, tyler got dressed then rolled his sleeves up showing some scars, mostly fresh cuts. "they hurt josh...it hurts so bad" tyler whipped his eyes, "why" josh said holding tylers hands looking at his wrists, "sometimes i don't feel anything and i think i'm dead so I cut myself to remind myself that i'm not dead..but it feels good" tyler said, "i used to cut myself but only a few times, that's why I wear a rubber band" josh showed 4 scars on his wrist, "i tried that but it doesn't work" tyler said, "just stopping cutting yourself i did it" josh replied, "it's not that easy!" tyler was getting annoyed at josh, "wOaH don't cut yourself on that edge oH wAIT!" josh yelled, "shut UP!" tyler yelled back, "i hate you so much" josh crossed his arms, "you're such a fucking asshole!!" tyler pushed josh out of the way, josh grabbed tylers arms, "this is NOT over!" josh shouted, "let go of me!!" tyler kicked, what tyler didn't know was josh was drunk. josh pinned tyler down, josh put his knees on tylers legs so he would stop kicking, "ow! get off me!" tyler started crying, "SHUT UP!" josh yelled, tyler was so scared he couldn't say anything, josh started leaving marks on tylers neck, "n..no..stop people will see" tyler said, josh slapped tyler then pulled him up, "strip" josh said crossing his arms, "don't do this.." tyler held his open cut arm incase josh hit him, josh did he yanked tylers arm down opening the cuts, "goddammit.." tyler mumbled, he didn't care anymore, a lot of blood got on his clothes, tyler was josh's doll, used for hours, that's what happened, josh raped tyler. hours on end. he couldn't cry anymore, or scream he was deprived of energy.
hours later
tyler sat on the edge of the bed while josh was sleeping, everything hurt, he got up and went to the bathroom, there was a body mirror, tyler looked at all the marks and bruises on his body, he could barely stand. his eyes were bloodshot and puffy, 'josh is sex manic..he can't keep in his pants..' tyler thought, his nose started bleeding, tyler gave up at this point, he cut his thighs again, opening up old cuts. there was blood everywhere, he lay in the fetal position on the floor. 'the floor is so cold, i should've put clothes on..' he thought.
in the morning
tyler ended up falling asleep, his legs were cover in blood. josh woke up, he got up, 'i guess me and tyler had sex, where is he and why is there blood everywhere' he thought, josh started to panic. he threw tylers adidas pants on, rushed into the bathroom to see a small, bloody naked boy. josh knew what he did, "no..no..NO GOD FUCKING DAMMIT!!" josh collapsed to the ground screaming and crying, "WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME!" he woke tyler up, tyler saw josh crying more than he's ever cried, "IM SORRY TYLER, IM SO FUCKING SORRY THAT WASNT ME!" he yelled, tyler was to weak to stand, he reached his arm to josh, he saw the open cuts, and a bruise that looked like a hand was wrapped around his wrist, tyler had two bruises on his wrists from josh holding him down and him trying to get away. josh was speechless, tyler forced a smile, "im fine.." he said as he had a bloody nose a cut cheek. josh saw what he made tyler do to himself, he look down at his hands they were covered in blood, he looked back up at tyler who was still in the fetal position and smiling, "why are you smiling" josh asked, his whole body is shaking. "because i like it when i can't feel anything.." tyler moved to his back, "no..tyler.." josh forced himself to remember, "i'm remembering it all.." josh held his head, 'his face..the crying..the screaming and kicking, how could I do this to him' josh thought. "it's ok..really..you made me so happy, you can do whatever you want to me now.." tyler said coughing, josh stepped over the blood puddle, josh sat tyler up against the tub, josh stared into tylers eyes, "josh...call 911.." tyler blacked out, "tyler?! shit shit" josh rushed to the phone and dialed 911 "yeah he has lost a lot of blood" josh said panicking, josh wrapped a towel around his waist. a few minutes and there is a banging on the door, josh quickly opened and saw the faces of everyone who saw tylers almost lifeless body, they carried tyler out to a stretcher and rolled him out, josh went pale, a nurse was trying to talk to him, "sir? it's ok, come with me" she said, josh went to the doorway of the bathroom looking at the blood, some cleaners who worked for the ER cleaned up the blood, and josh was able to wash his hands, he put tylers shirt on. he was trying not to pass out, the nurse drove him to the hospital. "just stay here.." she guided josh to the waiting room, "im going to get you some water" she smiled softly, josh nodded, 'should I turn myself in..' josh thought. after a few minutes the nurse came back with water and a blanket, she handed him the things, "thank you..very much" josh felt like he was dying. "do you want me to stay here.." she asked, josh nodded as tears fell like water falls, she hugged him and comforted him as he cried quietly.

sorry that was so long and very dark. i like writing long chapters, so hope u liked it anyway💀🌹