Give me a reason to believe (Frerard)

VII.

*Frank's POV*

My smile fades as memories from yesterday come back. Bert and Gerard, are they dating now? "What's wrong Frank?" Gerard asks. "Uh, nothing" I say. I roll over and get up. "Um I'm gonna shower" I say. "Okay, I'll be downstairs" Gerard says and leaves.

I sigh and walk into the shower. I stand in the shower, as the hot water rushes down my body. I stand there for a long ten minutes then wash my body. I stand there again for another ten minutes.

I sit on the floor and the water flows over my face. I grab the hair soap and wash my hair. There's a knock on the door but I ignore it. I close my eyes as I wash the soap off. Another knock. I open my eyes and shampoo gets in my eyes. "Fuck!" I say.

The door bursts open, "Are you alright Frank!" I hear Gerard. The hear the shower curtains fly open. I rub my eyes and slowly open them. The shower sliding door is slightly open and opens a bit more.

"Don't open the door" I say and shut it. "Sorry" Gerard says, "I just wanted to make sure that you are fine."

"I said I'm fine" I say a bit harsh. I hear Gerard sigh from the other side of the door. "Why don't you go see your boyfriend" I say, "I'll be fine on my own." "What are you talking about?" Gerard questions. I turn the shower off and grab a towel. I shake my head like a dog to dry my hair off a bit.

I wrap a towel around my waist and exit the shower. "You hear me" I tell Gerard. He gives me a sharp glare. "Go see Bert, I'll be fine on my own" I say. "What are you talking about?" Gerard asks again. "I'm not fucking stupid" I say, "I saw you two having the time of your lives being all giggly and drunk dancing."

"Yeah, we were dancing" Gerard says. "Then you two kissed," I say and my eyes go soft at the memory. I turn away so he can't face me. "You saw" He says and his voice goes soft. "B-but why would that matter?" Gerard says. I feel his hands on my shoulders. I sigh.

"It shouldn't matter. You don't like me like that, a-and I don't like you like that" Gerard says. I hear my heart shatter. I do like Gerard. I really do. "Leave" I whisper. "What?" He asks. "Leave, please. Get out" I shout and turn to him.

My eyes are watery and I don't want him to see me. "Just one more question" I say. He looks up at me and, god, I love his eyes. "Is Bert your boyfriend?" I ask. "He asked me out yesterday" Gerard says and looks down. "But I-" He continues and I cut him off. "Just leave already" I say. "Let me talk to you first" Gerard says and comes closer to me. "No, get out" I say.

"Frank, what the hell is wrong with you?" He asks and puts his hands on the sides of my face. I grab his hands by his wrists and pull them off me. "Get out, leave" I yell. "Please" I say and walk out the bathroom.

"Fine Frank!" I hear Gerard, "If you won't let me talk to you, I'll leave then. I'll go to my boyfriends house" He shouts the word boyfriend and makes my heart ache. He stops to the door of my room. He opens it and looks back at me. I turn away as I see his face as become red and eyes watery. "Bye Frank" He says and shuts the door loudly.

I fall onto the floor and let the tears come out. I cry and sob. Why the Fuck did this happen? I throw things and punch stuff to let my anger out. I cry some more. I yell some more. I cry again. Once I think I've had enough, I try to calm down and put on some clothes.

I get dressed and go into the kitchen. No one's home and I see some money on the counter, there's a note and it read:

Sorry Honey, I got an emergency call from the office. I won't be home for dinner. Here's some money so you can get something. -Xoxo Mom.

There's 35 dollars. I go upstairs to my room and take out my fake I.D from deep in my underwear drawer. I go back downstairs and grab the money. I grab my hoodie from the coat hanger. As I put it on I see one of Gerard's favorite hoodie. What do I do with it. I take it from the hanger and bring it to my face.

I sniff it and it smells like cinnamon and vanilla, like Gerard. I wipe my eyes as I feel the tears form in my eyes again. I open the door and exit my house along with Gerard's hoodie. I walk to his house which isn't very far. I knock and Donna opens it, which I'm glad about. "Hi Frankie" she greets me with a smile. "Hi Donna" I say, "Is Gerard here?" "Actually no, he hasn't been here since yesterday" She says.

"Well, I just wanted to return a jacket he left at my house," I say and hand her the hoodie "He's at Bert's house" I inform her. "Oh, thank you sweetie. Are you heading over to Bert's house?" She asks. "I was just running some errands for my mom" I lie. "Alright, you take care and say hi to your mom for me please" Donna says. "Will do ma'am" I say. "Bye now" She says and shuts the door.

I turn around and sigh. I head to the corner store which is a ten minute walk. As I go in, the bell rings. I walk to the counter and say "A pack of Marlboro" I say. The man retrieves the pack from the back and asks to see I.D. I show him my fake one and hand him the money.

As I exit, I take out my lighter and light one up. I inhale and exhale. I walk to the park and sit at a swing. I look at the empty swing next to me. Gerard and I always came here for fun. We kept coming here. Last time I did was about a week ago. I finish the cigarette and light another.