Lams Moments

Fake Smile

John's POV
I'm sitting on my bed, watching YouTube on my laptop, when my phone dings. I pick it up and look at it. It's a text from Alex. A long one. I sigh, opening the chat.

BookWorm: I can't believe Jefferson! He's such a jerk and he never learns his lesson or his place in life and it's really annoying! I wish I could just slap him or something! He deserves it! He deserves everything bad to happen to him and...

I stop reading the text message and just skip to the end. I decide to answer how I always do with these types of texts.

Turtle71: I'm sure it'll work out, Alex! Just have patience!

It usually works. I fake that I care. I usually fake things like that. Like a smile. It's really easy to do when texting. Or so I thought...

BookWorm: Are you ok, John?

BookWorm: You always reply with something like that.

Darn! Think, John! Think!

Turtle71: Yeah! I'm fine! I just want to help!😁

BookWorm: Ok then!

Phew.. It worked.

Anyways, for some reason, whether it be depression or some type of disorder, when people feel an emotion, I usually don't feel it like they do. I just feel.. The same. That's why I have to act. Fake it. I fake that I feel what they're feeling. When I really feel barely anything.

I sometimes wish that I could feel what others feel. It makes me feel excepted and not an outcast. But sadly, that's not what my life has in store for me. So all I can do is fake it. Fake feeling what others feel. Fake being ok. Fake a smile. And hope that everything will be ok.

Alex's POV
That's weird. John always replies with something along the same lines when I rant or vent to him. He told me he's fine and just wants to help. He is helping somewhat, but I can tell he's not ok. He always has somewhat of a delayed reaction whenever something happens.

I wish John would tell me what's wrong. Then maybe I could help him. We may just be best friends to him, but for me, I really like him. Like really really like him. I love him. John just doesn't see it. And that's ok. I can wait. As John says, "I'm sure it'll work out! Just have patience!"

So I'll have patience. I'll wait. And maybe one day, John will tell me what's wrong. Then I can help him. And everything will be ok.

I set my phone down on the side table and lay down on my bed. I stare at the ceiling for a good hour before actually falling asleep. Everything will be ok. I just have to wait.
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Hello Everyone! Hope you enjoyed this chapter! I'll update whenever I can, I promise! That's all for now! See you all in the next chapter!

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