revenge
/rɪˈvɛn(d)ʒ/
noun
the action of hurting or harming someone in return for an injury or wrong suffered at their hands.
This is Google's take on revenge. Although I would say that it falls under everything I'm implying I feel as if it's... miss...
The sun had found its way to my face, blinding me. I was currently gripping the sides of the bath in our houses only bathroom, ear plugs in ears, blade in hand. But I couldn't do it. I couldn't cut. I didn't want to die, no matter how load the voices in my head got. No matter how violent there words shock me.
I wanted to live. I had a hole life and I was just going to waist it because the first 16 weren't the best? I think not.
A small smile spread onto my lips, and the voices stopped. For the first time in years they stopped. I whipped my watering eyes with shaking hands. Someone had to pay for those 6 years I had to go through.
Maybe I could stop them from doing this to someone else, so no one would have to feel the pain I went through. I wouldn't wish that upon anyone, no matter how guilty.
I was plotting a revenge. But I needed some head space for a while, because I was finally thinking about myself and what would truly make me happy, instead of how I could make others happy so they would befriend me. Yes I still wanted friends, but not ones that would hurt me the way people at my school have been doing. I needed real friends, ones that would last my hole life and support me, the relationship going both ways. Someone I could share my secrets with, someone I could trust my life upon.
But the people I've meet so far in this world have woren down my standers of human beings, what say if there's no one out there who will accept me? All 95kgs of the sarcasm, weirdness and depressing emo in me?
I unplugged my music, I want something to remember this by, something that will symbolise a new beginning. No more cutting. No more taking crap. And no more hating myself, because others hate me.
I was celebrating a new me.
Getting out of the bath I went into my room to open my laptop, I was dry and clothed because I went in to the bath tube thinking it would make it easier to clean up so I didn't full it or anything.
Google: tattoos that symbolise new beginnings
My results were between two.
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One, A Celtic symbol that symbolises new beginnings.
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