My Jesus Journal

Piece By Piece

Still by Hillary Scott

I believe that You are God alone
But sometimes I still try to take control
Cause I get scared when I can't see the end
And all You want from me is to let go

You're parting waters
Making a way for me
You're moving mountains that I don't even see
You've answered my prayer before I even speak
All You need for me to be is still

I bring my praise before I bring my need
Cause there's no fear You've not already seen
I rest my heart on all Your promises
Cause I have seen and know Your faithfulness

You're parting waters
Making a way for me
You're moving mountains that I don't even see
You've answered my prayer before I even speak
All You need for me to be is still

And know that You are God
Be still
And know that You, trust that You are parting waters
Lord, You whispered my name
Oh, You answered my prayer
You're moving mountains

You're parting waters
Making a way for me
You're moving mountains that I don't even see
You've answered my prayer before I even speak
All You need for me to be is still
Be still

"Be still, and know that I am God."

-Psalm 46:10

My family has learned that my dad is terrible at giving a Christmas or birthday list because he never wants anything. But, what we've also learned is that my dad loves puzzles. So, we've bought my dad puzzles for Christmas and his birthday since discovering this. My dad uses the whole basement to work on these puzzles. While walking by a puzzle one day I so badly wanted to grab the pieces and finish it, but it wasn't my puzzle to finish. I went to the store and I bought myself my own puzzles to work on.

One of these puzzles I started before Christmas, but I got impatient and decided to step back from the puzzle and focus on other things. I revisited this puzzle the other day and worked on it section by section. Sometimes I would almost have a whole section done except for ONE piece and it drove me crazy! I just wanted the puzzle to be complete! I was so sick of sitting there and staring at the pieces, trying to figure out which pieces went where. Sometimes I wasn't even right about what section these pieces were supposed to go in, they looked similar to something in another section. When I bought the puzzle I knew what it would look like. With all the pieces out, I carefully laid out each one so that it was facing the right way. I took the time to place each piece somewhere that I could see it. But since I put all these pieces in this box, I couldn't flip the box over to see what the finished product was. Doing this puzzle was difficult without knowing where things were going to go, but I finished it. So, when I finally finished it, I was able to see exactly where each piece had gone, and it seemed silly that I hadn't been able to figure it out while I was doing it. Looking at this puzzle, I could see what each piece brought to the puzzle.

I've often thought of life as a puzzle. But, instead of me being the one in control of putting the pieces together, God is. God knows exactly what the puzzle is going to look like; He knows exactly what section needs each piece. Sometimes He doesn't finish a whole section at once, He takes His time to work on every section, and He completes the puzzle in the most efficient way. He never puts pieces in the wrong place. He may put similar looking pieces in different sections, but they're always in the right place.

There have been some additions made to a section of my puzzle within the last year. Let me explain.

Piece 1:

I'm not sure how many of you have read my previous entries, but in my 'Let The Heavens Open' entry I talked about how God healed my anxiety while I was on stage. My social anxiety was something that I struggled with since I was 5 years old, and in the time that it was at its worst, in the time that it made me hate everything that I once loved, God pushed it all out. In that entry, I talked about feeling free on stage. That night led to my senior sermon and my church offering me a position as a worship leader in my church.