Of Two Minds

Fun and Games

"Get on with it before I change my mind!", I complained as I lifted his chin, bringing his attention back to my face.

"Okay, okay!", he exposed his rocky chest and abs by ripping his shirt over his head. He moved my head aside gently, to open the mirror cabinet that hung on the wall behind me, and got out a condom and put it on. A wave of relief washed over me. I almost forgot to tell him to use one. I blame his hypnotizing eyes and delicious lips.

"Hurry up," I pleaded impatiently, feeling the sensitivity take over my ravenous body.He chuckled against my skin, his breath crashing against it, before he pursed his lips and left kisses on every inch of it.

"Taylo-", he covered my mouth with his palm, preventing me from letting out a loud moan, as he thrust into me. "Shhh", he whispered, "Luke's in the other room"I nodded quickly. He removed his hand, and quickly pressed his lips to mine, again blocking another moan. What? I couldn't help it, it was like a reflex.

When we were done, I sighed in amazement, as I leaned my head back on the mirror; I sat on the counter once again, with my towel wrapped around me now."How'd you like that?", Taylor asked me, smirking, as he pulled his jeans back up to his waist.I didn't answer, I continued to lean against the mirror, squeezing my eyes shut. I was taking in all that just happened, regretting it just a little bit.

"Hey? You alright?", he spoke in a soothing tone, as he came closer to me, placing his hands on my waist."That wasn't supposed to happen", I burst out, flicking my eyes open. "It was a mistake."

"Are you saying you didn't like it?", he asked bewildered.

"No", I sighed, getting off the counter. "I loved it but-"

A proud smile formed across his face,"I know you did", he grinned. Ugh, shaking my head, he can be so arrogant sometimes. I continued, "But what about Luke, he's my boyfriend. This is unfaithfulness."

"Don't think of it as being unfaithful. We were just having fun."

"But what if he finds out", I worried.

"Find out? How is he gonna find out? He's in his room, drowning himself in that video game. He won't find out. Don't worry."I still looked down, feeling uneasy."Look", lifted my chin with his finger, "if he ever finds out, you'll have me", he cheered me up, flashing his bright teeth. I didn't know how that was suppose to make me feel better, but for some reason, it did. Maybe it was the way he was making a joke out of something as serious as this, or maybe his smile, or possibly the fact that I knew I would have him, if anything went wrong. Thinking of that made me smile.

"Get out, I need to take another shower now.", I smiled as I pushed him towards the door."Couldn't I just stay and watch", he asked playfully, even though we both knew he would stay and watch if I let him. "Get outta here", I softly pushed him out and shut the door, locking it when it was closed.

As I took another quick shower, I thought about something. Was it really Luke I wanted? I felt so different around Taylor, more free, more comfortable, more...in love.... Love? What am I thinking I don't love anybody. If there's anyone I love, it's Luke. He makes me feel loved. He's so sweet and not bigheaded and full of himself, like his brother. And he's also not a player, like Taylor. I knew he wouldn't do anything to hurt me, that's the main reason I was feeling so guilty for what I did. Taylor, on the other hand, I wasn't so sure about. The way he was quick to say we were "just having fun", is that what he thought of this, just "fun"? I was uncertain about what he said, that I would have him if anything went wrong. Was he joking or did he seriously mean it. These were the questions that haunted me, the things that would come back and bite me in the ass, for what I did. As they say, karma's a bitch, a real snooty-nosed bitch.