The Dark Days

Chapter 15

We fell asleep facing away from each other, legs intertwined, with our arms around one another. I had missed waking up like this, with my face nuzzled into his neck, breathing in his familiar scent, and the weight of his head resting on mine.

I pulled away slowly, replacing myself with my pillow and heading for the balcony.

I sat down and began to sing:

"Help, I have done it again. I have been here many times before. Hurt myself again today. And the worst part is there's no one else to blame.

Be my friend. Hold me, wrap me up. Unfold me. I am small and needy. Warm me up. And breathe me.

Ouch, I have lost myself again. Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found. Yeah I think that I might break. I've lost myself again and I feel unsafe.

Be my friend. Hold me, wrap me up. Unfold me. I am small and needy. Warm me up. And breathe me. Be my friend. Hold me, wrap me up. Unfold me. I am small and needy. WArm me up. And breathe me."

I was hugged from behind as I finished.

He wrapped his arms around me, nuzzling into my neck, with his chin resting on my shoulder.

"When you are ready I'll do that for you. That and so much more." He spoke softly, testing the waters.

I leaned my head over to rest against his, closing my eyes in the process.

"I miss you, I miss us. This." When I didn't reply he slowly pulled away. My eyes snapped open and I spun around to face him, unsure of what to say.

"We are bad for each other Louis. Always have been, always will be." He looked at me with the look I knew to mean he was hurt, but there was a hint of anger. I wasn't used to him always being mad like this.