his lips were soft and sweet , and the way his hands wrapped around my neck and caressed my cheek made me warm . his mouth against mine made me want more . when he took a breath , he made me ache . i wanted to beg for more of him .
his skin was smooth . i wanted to feel more .
i wanted everything from him .
but i pulled away , despite the longing for me to go on , i pulled away from him and watched him smile just a little as he looked at me in the eyes . i watched his smile fade when i told him i had to go , and i watched his eyes turn from passionate to hurt as i stood and walked back to the door that would lead me to the stairs of the random apartment , back into the streets , and home .
to my girlfriend , who i was so certain was the one . who i was so certain would always be there , and never turn against me . and who i'm sure felt the same way about me .
and if so , i have then failed her . i had just betrayed her trust .
and although the taste of josh's lips still lingered on my mouth , and how i loved the taste , i knew i had to tell her , and risk seeing him again .
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how the music guides me * joshler
Fanfiction*completed* it all started when his headphones guided him to the other . *tylers pov *josh does appear in the story , be patient *trigger warnings - depression , self-harm , suicide mention . *lowercase intended *spaced punctuation intended
