Jamilton-A Tale Of Two Hearts

The Truth about Alex

-Smol ham man P.O.V-
My soulmate has stopped talking to me completely. That made me feel like shit I started cutting more and more my friends seemed like they didn't care.

I've drafted many suicide notes I've stopped taking my pills and never text my friends anymore. I don't even argue with Jefferson as much not since he's been dating Madison was I jealous? No? Yes? Why do I care who he's dating? I don't, do I?

My phone suddenly dinged like 1,789 times. It was my friends they keep saying they're worried about me

They do care

No they don't

Yes they do

If they cared they'd notice what's wrong with you, no one cares not even your soulmate

They don't care I should just die

Go ahead they won't notice or care

Just shut up

The truth hurts doesn't it

I couldn't stay in this room any longer if I did I felt like i was go to killmy-...... nevermind I decided to text my friends back.

The Revolutionary Set
Slapmyham: hey guys.

Burrn: OMG alex my child are you ok?

Slapmyham: im fine

Gayturt: you sure

Slapmyham: ye

Frenchmyfry: mon petit lion do want to join us to watch disney

Slapmyham: sure I'll be there in a sex

Slapmyham: I MEAN SEC

MYPANTSLOOKHOT: sure u do ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)
I walked out of my room and saw Jefferson and Madison cuddling on the couch I scoffed and walked out

Finally I made it the Laf's dorm and knocked John answered the door and hugged me I tried my hardest to force a smile on my face "hi" I walked in and sat down
• skip the dip of the skip of time•
* JOHN's P.O.V*
We were on our tenth movie which was The Little Mermaid. I looked down at Alex and saw something that sent shivers down my spine there were red lines on his wrist that looked like cuts. I nudged Herc "what?" " look at Alex's wrist" he looked back at me then tapped Laf

Laf looked like he was about about to cry then he tapped Pegs, Liza and Angie we all just looked at each other until I spoke up. "Alex what........what is that" I said pointing at his arm "oh that's n-nothing" he said pulling his sleeve down.

"Alex" "what?!" Snapped " what are those" I said " I already said it w-was look l-lets just get back to the movie" . I grabbed his arm "John let go if me!" I yanked up his sleeve

We all saw faded scares healing cuts and fresh ones "s-stop looking at me like that" he wiped the tears that pricked his eyes away
-Alex's P.O.V-

T-they weren't supposed t-to find out at all. Laf and Eliza were crying John and Herc were asking me why while Peggy and Angie were hugging me. I attempted to walk out the door bit John wouldn't let me

" Move John" " No Alex its obvious somethings wrong With You" " I-it doesn't matter I'm fine". " you're not 'fine'" thats when I broke down I began to hyperventilate my chest tightened and my mind raced with thoughts

This is exactly what I didn't want they don't need to worry about me. I made Laf and Liza cry, Laf walked up to me " Alexander you need to tell us everything thing". I nodded and cleaned myself up I sat in a chair in front of everyone Took a deep breath and began to talk.

"I have Anxiety and Depression" everyone gasped "and yes I do self harm. I-I've tried to kill myself 2 times I take anxiety and depression pills but lately I stopped taking taking them, I hate myself....... there I said it"

Everyone hugged me I decided to tell them about my background " l come from A small island in the Caribbean called Nevis-" John cut me off " Alexander you don't have to" everyone cut his off by saying shush

I continued " My family was very poor it was just me, my mother,my brother and m-my Father. My family wasn't the soundest my father used to beat my mom and I" I wiped away my tears

"My father would beat me to near death, and one day he forced me to date one of his Friend's son's for money, he wasn't the best boyfriend he would r-rape me" I cried harder.

"Until my dad left our family when I was ten, then me and my mother got very ill she died holding me in her arms when I was 12 now It was just my and me brother until the the h-hurricane"

"I got trapped under our house and almost drowned my brother was swept away from the current and drowned. I heard people screaming and d-dieing so I wrote about my pain until the people of Nevis took up a Collection ( just to sent him to the main land) and sent me to America to live with my cousin until he committed Suicide and now I'm here". Everyone was crying now I couldn't shake the feeling that would start to treat me differently, finally we all fell asleep.