Roommate - oumasai

Why you don't let your friends see your texts.

Shuichi allowed a smile to form across his face then layed his phone down on his bed within reach. He then suddenly remembered that Kaito had read the text and probably had loads of questions that Shuichi needed to clarify. 

"Kaito.. uh.." Shuichi started, "The text.. you saw it, right?" 

"Yeah, I saw it." Kaito replied anxiously, "Did you guys kiss?"

Shuichi felt his pulse accelerate, "Y-Yes.. we did."

He didn't know how Kaito would react. He hoped that he wouldn't be angry or mad. He wanted him to be happy or just neutral about the whole situation. He avoided eye-contact by redirecting his head down towards his bedsheets. 

"Are you a thing now?"

Shuichi didn't move his head from his position, he was frozen. He had no idea what he and Kokichi were to one another, he wanted to be able to say that they were...

He took a heavy sigh then looked up at Kaito. "No, we aren't." 

Kaito half-smiled as he could tell that his friend didn't really want to talk about it, that he was suffering, not knowing what they were to one another. "Just talk to him okay?" 

"T-Talk?" Shuichi stuttered back, not anticipating Kaito's support. 

"Yeah, say what you want to say.. what you need to say."

Shuichi lowered his head once again. "W-what do I e-even say to him.." 

"..." Kaito didn't know how to respond. 

"I've never been good at this sort of stuff.." Shuichi continued, his eyes filling with tears as he spoke, "Ever since... for fucks sake, I've ran away from him two times already..."

"Just tell him why, it will give him the context he needs to understa--" Kaito exclaimed before getting cut off by Shuichi.  

"Are you serious? I don't  want to tell him.."

"But it would explain why--" 

Shuichi spoke back in a stern tone, "No."

Kaito sighed then nodded in agreement. "Fine.. I get it, not my place."

Shuichi closed his eyes and turned over to face the wall away from Kaito. 

"Get some rest bro." Kaito gently said before exiting the room. He stood in the corridor then rested on the wall. He knew that he'd overstepped the line.

After a few minutes, he got himself together and stood up. He started walking down the corridor, picking up speed as he walked. He didn't know where he was going, he just knew that even if Shuichi didn't want Kokichi to know about his past.. Kokichi needed to know. 

If he told him, the possibility of his and Shuichi's friendship coming to an end was.. certain. 

His thoughts abruptly came to an end when he crashed into someone, sending them both crashing to the floor. People surrounding them turned around to them with startled looks on their faces. 

Kaito rubbed his head then apologised to Kokichi who he had crashed into. "Sorry, I wasn't looking where I was going.."

Kokichi was holding his hand to his head then laughed, "It's alright.. I guess if I had to get injured, a hospital would be the best place.." 

The both of them then stood up and the people around them then continued with whatever they were doing. Kokichi stood around for a while before deciding to leave to go and see Shuichi but was stopped by Kaito grabbing his arm.

"Wait, Uhh!" Kaito exclaimed dramatically, "You're going to see Shuichi, right?" 

"Yeah, we need to talk." Kokichi replied naturally, "Did you want something?" 

It was in that moment that Kaito made his decision. He wasn't going to tell him. It wasn't his place, it wasn't up to him. 

"No, it's nothing." Kaito shrugged, letting go of Kokichi's arm.

Kokichi took his arm back from Kaito then walked away from him towards Shuichi's room. 

He walked into the room to see Shuichi lying in his bed half-asleep. As soon as he entered the room he felt out of place. He finally felt the pressure crushing down on him, a pressure so intense it could kill him. 

He stood awkwardly near to the door not knowing what to do. "Don't wake him up, don't make a sound, don't do anything stupid.." Kokichi repeated in his head over and over again before tripping over a chair and face-planting onto the ground, waking Shuichi up. 

"Well that went well." 

Shuichi rubbed his eyes then sat up in his bed and yawned, "How long have you been lying on the floor for?" 

Kokichi dusted himself off and stood up, "I'll forgive that sarcasm." 

He looked around him then picked the chair up and placed it back where it was meant to be then sat down in it. "So, we need to talk?" 

"Yes, I think we need to..." Shuichi replied, suddenly realising how awkward this coverstation was going to be. 

"Well then, I'll start.. the kiss meant something to you, right?" Kokichi asked anxiously, "Because it meant something to me." 

Shuichi knew the answer to this question, it was the easiest question he'd ever been asked. "Yeah, of course it did Kokichi." 

He looked relieved. Thank goodness Shuichi felt the same way.. now that was cleared up, he needed to ask the harder questions. "What did it mean to you exactly?" 

This question was much harder than the last one Kokichi had asked. It demanded Shuichi to be more open about his feelings which he was never good at. "I think it meant that I like you and you like me, in a... romantic way?.." 

"Yeah, I think that to.. why do you keep running away?" 

This was the hardest question of all. It was a simple enough question to ask but the answer, the true answer was difficult to share. He didn't want to tell him because just like other people that had found out, Kokichi would pity him. 

"I don't know." Shuichi replied, obviously lying. 

Kokichi had a frustrated look on his face. "You don't know? Wow, I thought we were being honest, putting all our cards on the table but.. obviously you don't want to. I can tell a lie from a truth easily Shuichi."

Kokichi started to head toward the door, "Talk to me when you're ready to be honest." 

Shuichi reached out to stop him but it was already too late. The door slammed shut. 

Shuichi angrily pounded his fist into his mattress. "God damn it." 

Kokichi stormed out of the room and down the corridor where Kaito was standing. Kaito saw Kokichi and called out to him, "Ouma? What happened?!" 

Kokichi turned around and snarled back, "He won't tell me the truth!" 

Kaito knew that Shuichi was going to hate him for this but he couldn't let Kokichi not know the details that he desperately needed to know. "Ouma, listen to me.. Shuichi is going to kill me for this but there's something you need to know." 

Kokichi was still obviously pissed. "What." 

Kaito walked up to him, "It's about Shuichi. You need to know what happened to him when he was younger."