The Sound Of Heartbreak (A Sotus The Series Fanfiction)

Track 11: Happier - Ed Sheeran

Arthit's

It's summer, but i feel cold. The last four weeks of my second semester has been so very unusual. It felt like something's off, I am off. I am not to my usual self yet i manage to hide it from my friends. From day to day i feel like i lack; that something is missing. Even Namtarn's presence can't decipher the feeling i felt and probably i will continue to feel.

I digged my self comfortably on the bed trying to get some sleep. I just got home from my interview and hopefully that'd be my last interview for today and how i wish i'd pass. I heaved a deep sigh and roll over the bed making me face my window and the room opposite to mine.

I closed my eyes and opened it immediately when someone's face suddenly appear. "Kongpob" i muttered. I felt my heart skipped beats and my mind kept on flashing Kongpob's memories with me. I ruffled my hair and stressed out a loud noise, thinking what's wrong with me. I grabbed my towel from the corner, walked straight in the bathroom and drowned my self in the cold water.

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"Mae! I'm home!"

"I-Aoon, my son!" She greeted back stretching her arms to give me a hug. I hugged her tight and kissed her cheeks.

"Where's Pa?" i asked as we both pull ourselves from the warm hug.

"He's on his way. He just finished some paper works in the office. Let's go inside. I missed you so much. So, how was school?"

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"I'Aoon! Time to eat."

"Yes Mae!"

"So how was school?" Pa asked, as i settled down on my seat.

"Oh! It was fine pa, i was just worried because no one contacted me yet for my internship." i said in disappointment.

"Ohoy, I-Aoon, don't lose confidence, they sure will." Mae comforted me.

"So by the way, is there already someone making our I-Aoon's heart skipped beats?"

skipped beats ..

skipped beats ..

skipped beats ..

"I-Aoon? Is there anything wrong?"

"Ahh -- Uhmm .. no." I assured Mae.

"Uhmm.. eat a lot, your getting thinner already." Pa said while putting a lot of food to my plate and chuckled.

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I slouched on my room's couch almost dripping over to the edge spacing out while rubbing my chest. I was thinking about what Mae asked me a while ago.

skipped beats ..

"There's no way!" I stressed out stood up and made my way to the bed. I threw my self on the bed and took my phone out of my pocket. I unlocked it with my pass code and ..

"Haaaay.." i sighed

I usually have messages or notifications when i unlocked my phone and those were from only one person. I think i got used to his acts. Yeah, that's right! I just got used to his acts. I don't feel anything or something about him i just got used to him. As simple as that. I chuckled as i kept on thinking how stupid i was confusing my self on what i am feeling 'coz it was wrong.

I stopped at the last words i thought and my smiles suddenly then was gone and my chest started to felt pain.

Then, i'm confused again.

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Kongpob's

"Mae! I'll get going. I love you! Just tell Pa when he got home. Bye!" I yelled out and then grabbed my bag on the couch went out the house and rushed my self to the bus stop.

Two months were just like two days, it was too short. I never got the chance to bond with my family that much because of their works. Well, my niece and nephew did make my summer, summer!

I immediately jumped on the bus and found my self a seat at the very end. I took my phone from my pocket, plugged my headphone and tacked it to my ears.

"Kong!!"

I turned my head to the side to see someone waving at me smiling like crazy. I smiled back as his face processed to my head.

"P'Tom!"

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Arthit's

I was awaken by my phone as it continuously ringing banging my ears like it's telling me to wake up, get up and answer whoever is calling. I stretched my arms over my bed-side table, took my phone and answer it immediately. My eyes got wide as the person over the phone spoke the good news. I thank him and promised to attend my first day. It's the ocean electric. My application has been recognized and i passed. They wanted me to start as soon as the class start. I jumped off the bed wore my shorts and shirt then came rushing down the building to buy breakast.

As i pull my self to exit the building, my eyes caught someone. Seeing him made my heart jump like a crazy kangaroo but seeing him with someone else made my heart break like a thin vulnerable glass.

Walking down 29th and park
I saw you in another's arm
Only a month we've been apart
You look happier

"Kongpob" i muttered as i froze to where i stood. I can't feel my feet, can't feel anything.

Saw you walk inside a bar
He said somethin' to make you laugh
I saw that both your smiles were twice as wide as ours
Yeah, you look happier, you do.

He's with a guy. He's smiling. He looked good compared the last time i saw him. He's smiling .. He's laughing.

Ain't nobody hurt you like i hurt you
Ain't nobody love you like i do
Promise i will not take it personal
Baby
If you're moving on with someone new

I clenched my hand to form into a fist as i saw them hugging each other. My vision then got blurry and noticed my cheeks were already wet. Am i crying?

'Cause baby you look happier, you do
My friends told me one day I'll feel it too
And until then I'll smile to hide the truth
But I know I was happier with you »

I just came back to my senses as the guy jumped in inside a cab and Kongpob turned his way to the entrance. I immediately wiped off the wet thing from my cheeks with the back of my hands and walked over him.

"Kongpob.."

I uttered as i got my self infront of him blocking his way. He looked up and was surprised but gain his sense right after.

"P'Arthit krub" he answered and wai'ed.

My body shivers a li'l as he utter my name with his voice. My name sounded good with his voice and my body coudn't deny that as the chills ran from my feet 'til the back of my neck.

We just stood there for a minute i guess facing each other not making any fuss. Kongpob looked down walked pass me and went on his way to the building.

‘Cause baby you look happier, you do
I knew one day you’d fall for someone new
But if he breaks your heart like lovers do

My heart skipped beats this time not because of happiness but because i think i'm dying of pain.

Just know that I’ll be waiting here for you »

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I have seen their kissing scene in sotus s episode 9 and instead of feeling 'kilig' i felt sad. I might have cried the first time i watched it but i realize it's not worth crying for because i still believe that when sotus is over, they will be together sooner. AGAIN.