The Sound Of Heartbreak (A Sotus The Series Fanfiction)

Track 6: Just A Dream

Kongpob's

"What are we going to do?" asked Oak sitting between Maprang and Tew.

We were gathered here in the hall to discuss and decide what to do this night's program that'd be conducted by the seniors. We were divided into groups; I, Em, May, Oak, Tew, Maprang and Prae are in the same group brainstorming like there really are brains to storm 5555 I'm really useless when it comes to this kind of thing.

"Kong, do you have any idea?" Em asked me. He's frustrated. I can see it in his eyes.

I shake my head as an answer. "Just do whatever you want." I said while giving my head a light massage.

"Does your head aches Kong?" It's May.

"A li'l bit May."

"I'll just get my medicine." I excused. I got up and went straight to our room. It doesn't take long, when i got my medicine i immediately walked out of the room and was about to go back to the hall when i heard something.

"I love you Nam."

From the voice itself, i already know who it was. It's impossible for me to not recognize who it was. For months i've been following him, chasing him, i know what his voice hears like. But this time, it sounded like a mellow song, relaxed and calm; Far more beautiful than i had always heard. My heart became heavy as stone making me breath lifelessly.

"I should've confessed to you before Jay could. You shouldn't have felt pain. You shouldn't have felt oblivion. You should have felt nothing but love." The man confessed holding the girl's hand enclosing it with his own.

I hid behind a wall leaning my head forward to see them.

"Arthit" the girl muttered pleasurely. She paused and slowly leans forward to Arthit. I feel numb. I can't move. I can't take my eyes away or cover it with my hands neither. Their lips are about to press against each other when i involuntarily but intentionally push the flower pot. It broke into pieces as it reach the ground. Its pieces were scattered all over, broken; broken as how my heart is.

"Who's there?" Arthit cluelessly asked to whoever he think pushed the pot. As i hear footsteps, i immediately run back to the room. I slammed the door close and locked it.

I sat on the edge of my bed which was located at the right corner of the room. I slowly lift my hand and rest it on my chest. I'm having a hard time breathing. It feels like it's gonna explode. My lips were trembling together with my heart's fast beats. I can't hear nothing but the loud beats from my heart; it's deafening and it's painful at the same time.

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Arthit's

"Who's there?" I exclaimed as i hear a breaking sound.

I went to where the sound came from and a broken pot lies in front of me. "Who did this?!" I blurted.

"What's that 'Oon?"

"Ah-- it's a broken pot Nam."

"And who would break a pot?" She confusely asked and i can only give her a shrug.

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We launched the night program at exactly 7 pm. The juniors performed what they practiced this afternoon and everyone seemed to have fun. It's now Kongpob and his group's turn to perform. They stands up and introduces one by one but someone's lack from the group, it's Kong.

"Wait.. where's your leader?" Toota loudly asked literally 'coz he was the emcee and he has the mic.

"He's sick P' he's in our room." Em replied.

My feet uncontrollably walks out of the hall, almost. Namtarn grabbed my hand and pulled me back.

"Where are you going 'Oon? The show's not yet done."

She took her seat beside Prem and i took mine beside her. I was in deep thought about how Kong was doing. All his friends were here that means, he's alone and he's sick. We haven't give the gears yet, he must be here.

"I'm gonna make you my wife."

I was frozen in my seat. Am i hearing things?

"Kongpob!"

I turn my head infront and saw a guy holding the other guy to its collar. I feel like my face heats up and then i ..

"STOP!" bursts out.

The guys immediately run back to their seats and everyone shut themselves silent. I walked out the hall. I ran as fast as i could to get away from my thoughts, then i realize how stupid i am, i have here my thoughts right inside my head, how would i ever get away from this?

"Arthit!"

I turn my head to see Ai'Knott panting. He must have followed me, obviously.

"What's wrong?" he greeted.

"I just --- i don't know." I answered knott.

"Ohoy! Pick yourself together already, we still need to give the gears to the juniors."

"Yeah."

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We, the seniors intertwined our arms together to make a bridge to give way to the juniors to their gears. It's an innovative way of saying to them that we are here at all times whenever they need us; that we are their seniors and that we'll help then no matter how big or small the problem is.

One by one, the juniors walk on our arms. "Khor thot P'" said the guy who was roleplaying kongpob a while ago. I just nod at him to say it's fine. "P' khor thot." The guy who was roleplaying me. Just like the other guy, i just nod at him. The queued line of the juniors is becoming shorter and shorter each time 'til there's two juniors left and i haven't seen Kongpob yet.

"WE'RE DONE HERE!" That was P'Dear as the last junior took his gear.

"WAIT P'!"

I felt a sudden jolt inside me as i hear his voice. He run towards us and we intertwined our arms together again to make way to Kongpob.

"How are you feeling now?" i immediately asked him as he got himself to my side.

"I'm fine P'" he said looking in a straight direction.

He didn't look at me or even just glance at me, that's kind of unusual.

Oh i was thinking 'bout you
Thinking 'bout me Thinking 'bout us what are we gonna be
Open my eyes it was only just a dream.

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Kongpob's

"How are you feeling now?" He asked me. Yeah, he asked me. Why is he asking me? why the hell he cares?

So i travel back down that road
Will you come back no one knows

Probably he was just acting as my senior, yeah, that's it. He is my senior and i'm his junior.

I realize, it was only just a dream

"I'm fine P'" I answered without even looking at him or glancing using my peripheral view either.

It was only just a dream.