Are you different?

Old heartbreak

All day I have looked for activities, so I wouldn't be thinking about James. I have looked through photos, changed them a little, read two books, cleaned and still I can't get him and his text out of my head. What that all supposed to mean? Why do I have to wait? That's not me, I hate waiting. Besides all of this thinking and worrying, I have to speak with James again I guess.

I was watching Netflix when suddenly a car pulled into Melani driveway. I know, I still don't consider this place as my own home. I didn't bother myself to go and look who it was, that doesn't matter anyway. After five minutes I started to get anxious, cause no one hasn't come inside yet. I walked to the window and to my surprise there were two cars. My dad stood by the other car and was talking with somebody I didn't recognise. Ready to walk away I looked at them for the last time when that somebody my dad was talking with came out of the car and my heart started to beat faster. Fuck.

I ran to my room and turned on music so that seemed like I haven't heard them coming. Shit. Why he had to come here and why is he talking with my dad? He knew that I didn't want to see him never again yet here he was. I hope that my dad remembers who he is and sends him away. 

The front door opened and I started to get nervous. My dad was talking and I knew- he let him in. The first boy who broke my heart. I pulled myself together and started to read, trying to avoid the problem who was downstairs. After a short moment, someone knocked at my door and my hope that I could ignore the problem was gone. Avoiding him wasn't going to happen. 

''Who is it?'' I asked with trembling voice.

''Your dad. Someone is here and he wants to talk with you.'' He takes a long breath.

''Someone? Who is it?'' I try to sound curious. 

''I think that you should come and see yourself.''

''No thank you.'' Maybe I still can avoid him.

''Fine. As you wish, I will send him to your room.'' 

Before I could answer anything he walks away and my room's door is opened.

There he is, a boy who broke my heart and run away with my best friend. I bite my lower lip so I didn't start to laugh. Like how pathetic is this? He dumps me, starts dating with my ex-best friend and right when I get over him, he shows up at my house. God really loves me.

''What do you want?'' I looked at him with no emotions at my face.

''I... I am here to apologise, All'' He seems nervous.

''Don't bother, I don't want that.'' And still no emotions, I am getting better with this.

''But I want to, so please hear me out.'' He says humbly.

''You don't understand, do you? I don't want you here and I don't want your dumb ass to apologise, so why don't you show yourself out?'' I really am a bitch and it feels good.

''All, I am so so sorry what I did to you and I really regret it. I know that this isn't enough because I broke your heart and ruined your friendship with Jessica, but I really want to make it right again,'' He stops and looks at me.