I went out to talk to her. "Caitlyn what are you doing here?","um hi?","yeah sorry hey what are you doing here?","Alex told me about it.. Why haven't you called me?","because i didn't want you to be worried.","but keeping it secret is worse","i know i'm sorry i was just in chock. Come in","no i'll go back home. Just wanted to tell you that","no i won't let you go home at this time. Come in, the doctor's gonna tell us about him." We entered and the doctor came out. "He is fine. Just have some broken bones and is in a..." He didn't seem comfortable to say it out loud. "Coma". A coma?! This couldn't be worse. "I did my best, i can't help anymore." I was heart broken. It happened because of me. I could have forced him to stay or asked him to go to another place near where we were. But i didn't and i blame myself for that. I woke up a little bit early the next day. Everybody was sleeping but i didn't find Lilly. Caitlyn went back home and my mom did too because she had work. I saw Lilly coming to me holding food for me to eat. "Here sweetheart eat, you must have lost so much energy since yesterday." She said with a broken smile. I could see the sadness in her red puffy eyes. Her voice was also weak. "Thank you Mrs Lilly" i also said with a weak voice. "Call me Lilly" was the last thing she told me before she sits back next to her husband. After i finished eating, the hospital was still calm. I decided to go and see Luke. I opened the door quietly and closed it behind me. Then i sat on the chair next to his bed and held his hand. His face was covered with bruises and scars everywhere. His arm was broken and he had bandages all over his body. I started talking to him. "Hi. I don't know if you'll ever hear me but i'm sorry. Sorry for letting this happen to you, sorry for being a bitch sometimes, sorry for hurting you, sorry for making you worried about me, sorry for everything. You've always been here for me and i wish i was here for you either but i was selfish. I should've gave you more affection and attention. I should've showed you how much i care about you. But i didn't and i regret it. I also regret every bad word i said to you such as "i hate you" or "i wish i never met you" because they aren't true. I am really thankful to have you in my life. You've made me happy when i was sad, made me smile while wipping my tears, made me feel protected when i was scared of the world. But i don't care about the world, all i care about is you. You are my world. And i couldn't stand the feeling of losing you forever. I beg you, wake up! Please! I need you in my life, you're the one who brightens my day, you're my sunshine and i love you. Not the friendly way no, i am in love with you. Everytime i think of you aka the whole time, i smile and have butterflies. This is actually i weird feeling really. Please wake up. I want you to hold me and kiss me, i want to hear your voice again, i want to laugh and cuddle with you. But the thing is.. The thing is you don't love me anymore. To you now i'm just a friend cause i hurt you. I just wanted you to know that. I don't want you to go to heaven without knowing that. I love you." I was obviously crying so i wiped my tears, calmed myself a little and went out again.
