"Interesting conversation" i said breaking the silence. "Slowly slowly you're talking really quickly". He looked at me with a serious face "stop it. I just don't know what to say or where to even begin","i'm sorry..","you're always sorry.","so what i don't know what to say either. You left me, without saying goodbye. And now you come back to me, making me feel it was all my fault."," i didn't say it was your fault Leah.","seems like it to be honest","i said i love you and you were like but i just love you like a friend and you know i love Jake and bla bla bla." His voice was getting louder. "You left me and ran away and you tell me ITS NOT YOUR FAULT LIKE SERIOUSLY","do you think i wasn't hurt? Do you think i did this easily? Leaving my bestfriend in the middle of nowhere and going? Do you know what i was evem going through that time? I didn't have anyone except you. You were my only friend. And i lost you that night. I thought i'll never see you again. I cried for days. I was so hurt you can't imagine the pain. I was more hurt than when i was getting bullied." I said crying. "Can you imagine how hard my life was when you left? No. You know why? Because you don't care about me. You never did." I covered my face with my hands and cried my eyes out. He just sat there looking away not even trying to recomfort me. When i calmed down, i decided to go. "I'm going. That's it i'm done","what? No we haven't finish yet","what do you wanna say? That i'm a fragile sensitive girl who cries over stupid things? I already know that" i said as i took my bag to go. "I wanna say that i'm sorry. I should've known how you will feel and i shouldn't be so harsh on you.. I was just so hurt and broken hearted. You rejected me remember? And i couldn't handle it, that's why i decided to go. I told my friends about it. And i asked them to tell you too because i didn't have the courage to do it myself." I stood there frozen. I didn't know how to react. I saw a tear on his face. He was obviously crying. "I gotta go." I said in a cold way. I turned and walked away. I didn't want to go to John's after that. I don't want him to see me cry, so i walked a bit and sat under a tree without doing anything. I take a cigarette and light it up. Yes i do smoke. Nobody was there but me and the wind.
