Fat Boy // styles [Disorder prequel]

two

"It's never good, it's simply 'better' than before."

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September 16, 2008 -09.23 -

Dear Journal,

I want to be hers. Felicitie, she's so beautiful. I want to be the one to hold her hand when walking through the halls; but this is the problem: she doesn't want to be mine. I'm a freak in her eyes and as long as people still think I am, then I'll never be hers.

Why. Why do I fall for the ones that will hurt me the most? I need a girl that loves me for my flaws - my disgusting god awful flaws. Like this gross fat roll and the fucking part of my arm that flabs because of all my fat or the way I say certain words or the way I think. I need a girl that wants me even if I don't necessarily want them. But I will - over time - I'll learn to be completely and insanely in love with her. I need a girl that understands.

I need someone to understand.

Love Always,

Harry Styles

P.S. Zayn punched Matthew Fields in the face today. I don't know why.

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And how are you? I hope you're well.

I have this annoying headache that hasn't gone away. I actually regret hitting my head repetitively on a brick wall now. And I just feel sad. So I thought that I could write...

You're so fucking gorgeous, babes. <3

Thanks for reading :]

- Hannah xoxo