she likes the color yellow

my mountain of pain

i like my edge.
it haunts others.

she's crazy
if she goes, i go.
poor girl.
let's talk about this.
please, don't do this.
get away from that ledge!
tunnel vision kills
there were no signs.

i peer past my feet.
there's nothing.
nichts.

i drop a rock
waiting for the echo.

nothing
but a bottomless abyss

see! there's nothing.
don't jump.
you'll regret it.

isn't that the point?

i feel nothing.
is the end different?

"nothing" is better
than the pain behind me.

i'll take my chances.

my legs move,
dangling over the edge.

stop!
give life a chance.
it gets better.
you're just hurting.

yes, mein schmerz.

while no one was looking,
i leaped expecting death.

her hands snagged me.
my collar wrinkled.

she hauled me back
onto the mountain,
berg des schmerzes.

scolding me,
love shines in her eyes,
die augen meines schutzengels.

Sorry, mom.
I love you, mom.
Thank you, mom.

the abyss can wait
for some other day.