she likes the color yellow

god is a joke

i've always felt trapped,
claustrophobic,
caged by my body.

my mom tells me
"god has a way,"

i can't believe in him, he is a sham.
his is not real.

if god was real,
he's not as great
as everyone says.

"god loves all"

no, god doesn't.
he doesn't love all.

he allows terror,
laughing.

"god loves all
his children"

really?

he loves rapists?
he loves killers?
he loves pedophiles?

if god was real,
he gave life to monsters
like me

"god loves you"

he couldn't love me.

he was the one who
stuck me in the wrong
body.

he gave me boobs
and ovaries
instead of testosterone.
i prayed
for a deep voice,
but i only got
the middle finger

"god is always watching"

sure, this can be true
i guess.

but...

god is laughing at me
like i'm the joke.