CHAPTER 8 : Memories
Zheexhie's POV
After talking about Llyam earlier with Blue I suddenly felt something very hard on my chest to my heart. I know that it's been a year but I can't forget, erase him that easily in my heart and memories. It is very hard for me. I wanted to forget him. Move on and start a new chapter of my life. But how? I'm scared to live my past all behind. I just couldn't. I don't care if people will think and say that I'm a coward. Who cares anyway? We are talking here about my past. The past that I cherish the most. The past that made me who I am today. The past that made me realize a lot of things that before I didn't even bother to care. The past that we created.
I went to my room and get the antique box that I hid a year ago after Llyam's death. I hid everything in there. Simula sa pabulaklak niya, sticky notes, letters, lip stickers that has his scent and laslty the rubber bands. Hindi lang siya kung anong rubber bands na makikita natin sa divisoria or sa mga tindahan. Yun 'yung rubber bands sa special talaga sa 'kin. It was different from all the other rubber bands. It's special because he made it somewhere I don't know because he didn't tell me about it. But . . . when he died I stopped wearing those because it just reminds me of him lying on the coffin sleeping peacefully. That is why I kept it safe and sound.
I grab the big red envelope. I remember this. He gave me this on our 1st ever anniversary. We never celebrated monthsary's just anniv. Kaya sobrang saya ko 'nung sinurpresa niya ako. He was my first and it's just so romantic.
13 August 2012
Dear mademoiselle,
Bonjour! Hola! Konnichiwa! Annyeong!
It's our anniversary. Woah! Party, party!! Hahaha :D Don't mind me sweetie. I'm just so very HAPPY. It's our anniversary!! (Wait, how many times did I just wrote that?) Well, anyways Love. *kiss on your cheek* I wanted to say that your beautiful on each and every part of your body. Your hot. Damn! I want to french kiss you right now Love!... I'm very lucky a man to meet such an angel from above. No other than . . . YOU. Who else could it be? Tch!
I might not be in there with you celebrating your birthday today because I am here in US. No problem with buying tickets on the way home Love it's just I can't because you know and understand my reason. And I love you for that ;)
Love, happy anniversary! I love you. Je 'taime. Wo ai ni. Saranghaeyo. Mahal kita. Thank for coming into ny life. Thank you for everything, from buttom to top Love. You know what I mean :D Thank you for sharing your life with me, your Llyam boy even though sometimes you forget how to pronounce my name. I kinda felt hurt about that but who cares I damn much love you. Your my mate and we're bound together. HA HA HA! I know your reaction now Love. You hate cheesy lines 'cause your allergies to cheese. My apologies. Anyway, I have to end this now because I still have to run some errands for the first time in my life. Don't forget that I love you much, much. Bye! Take care. Don't forget to thank God for everything that he had give you. Pray always and have faith. ^.^
Love,
Your cheesy Llyam
And here is the other letters. We were separated when there main LY Jewelry Shop got rob. It was a very big lost to there family. Kaya naisipan nila tito magbakasyon muna sa malayo. I respected his parents that's why . . . na experience ko ang LDR which is hard. Mahirap dahil sa mga sulat lang kayo nag-uusap. Mahirap dahil hindi mo siya nakikita at nakakasama. Mahirap dahil sobrang miss mo na siya pero wala kang magawa upang makita siya. b
