Letting go

Chapter 12 : Loyal

You can't let go in 1 day.

I found that out the night of the funeral.

I had another nightmare. The same as last time. Except this time she asked for my help but I couldn't help her. It was like I couldn't change what happened.

I guess it's that way in real life though.

The doctors say that they made a mistake and that I didn't have schizophrenia , just a concussion. I was glad to hear that. I have enough problems already and a mental illness wouldn't help.

Tim hasn't had much time to hang out with me because he missed so much training. And Luca still hasn't talked to me since our fight thing. I'm not really sure what you'd call that thing that we had. But we're definitely not together and maybe not friends either. Jack and Kathy kinda just ignore me ,

I guess that hasn't changed.

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*at school during lunch*

I sit with Chloe and my other friends. Of course I'm pretty quiet around them still. But it'll get better eventually. It has to. Life can't stay miserable forever.

Luca starts to walk over.

"Can I uh ... talk to you?" he says quite awkwardly considering we've been friends forever.

"Sure..." I say getting up and following him out into the hall.

"I'm sorry , for what I said. I didn't mean it and ... and I'm sorry ok" he says quite panicky.

"Why are you nervous?"

"I ... I don't know I guess it's just ... just that we are , were , friends for a long time and I just ..."

"I don't have schizophrenia like the doctors thought. It was just a concussion and I was just acting a bit different"

"That's good"

I start to head towards the cafeteria.

"I thought we still are friends!?" I turn around saying.

"We are?"

"Unless you don't want to be friends"

"No , no we're friends!" he says a smile dreading across both our faces.

"We always will be"

That will never change.

Things are looking up.