Damage*ON HOLD*

Chapter Eleven

*warning: I don't know just 'kissing' lul*

*4 weeks later*

"So how are you and your dad doing?" Chaz asked me as we walked through the mall trying to find a record shop "we're doing fine, he told me he's gonna try and go into rehab again but I don't know if he will" I tell him truthfull as we finally find the record shop and walk into it "if he loves you and truly wants to get off the shit he will Lola I'm sure of it" he tells me rubbing my back as I sigh nodding my head before looking to him with a smile "I'm so glad I have you to help me through this type of crap, and Mike as well" I say resting my head on his shoulder as we look through the vinyls "I'm glad to be here for you Lola you're the only friend I've ever actually loved like a lot I mean besides Mike but that's kinda weird to say" he says with a shy laugh and I smile shaking my head "I think it's cute I love it when you two show that you love each other as friends you two act like brothers a lot of the time" I say with a giggle as I put on some head phones to listen to the record moving the left ear muff away so I could still listen to Chaz "I feel like he's my brother sometimes like the protective older brother ya know" he says and I nod looking to him as I put on another record "anyways I was gonna have a movie night tonight I was wondering if you'd like to watch some movies with me, we can order pizza and maybe listen to your new tunes" he explains to me as I pick out some records and I nod excitedly "that sounds so damn fun Chazzy we haven't really hung out like that since I moved back in with my dad" I say watching his face light up as he smiles big "awesome I'll pick you up at 6 okay" he says and I nod walking with Chaz up to the cashier "sounds good Chazzy" I tell him as I pay for my records and we leave the mall.
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"I'm going to Chazzy's place tonight dad" I announced to him as I walked down the hallway with my coat in my arm and a few records hearing my dad sigh "be safe Lola please" He slurred his sentence making me sigh and roll my eyes at his drunk ness "I will dad, love you" I said quickly before walking out the front door seeing Chaz waiting in his car for me, as I walked around to the front I lightly banged on the hood of his car making him jump and look at me with a smile as he glared to me making me laugh as I got in his car "did I scare you?" I ask knowing the answer as I wiggles my eyebrows but he shook his head obviously lying "nope not at all" he said with a smile while he pulled out of my driveway and drove to his house. I got into his bed watching him put in beetle juice aka my favorite movie and grab our snacks walking to the bed and getting in as he did so I scooted closer to him "you ready?" He asked his finger on the play button and I nodded excitedly watching as he played the movie and I dug my hand into the bag of chips he had got, I smiled leaning my head against Chaz's shoulder hearing him take a deep breath "do you like the movie?" I ask him looking up at him as he nods his head he gives me a small smile making me smile as well "thank you for letting me stay with you for so long" I say to him taking my head off his shoulder as I looked to my fingers "it's not a problem Michelle I think you'd do the same for me" he says to me making me smile as I felt his eyes on me "I would definitely in a heart beat" I tell him now making him smile as he jokes around by moving his hand "oh stop it" he jokes making me push him softly as I laughed biting my lip and looking back down to my hands "I'm glad I met you and Mike" I mumbled messing with my fingers as I swallowed the lump in my throat "I'm glad we met too now that I think about it, it was pretty boring without you" he says as I look to him confused "yeah right I'm pretty boring" I say making him laugh and nod his head as I nudged him playfully "I'm kidding Lola, it's true you've made my life damn interesting" he says to me resting his hand on my arm making me look at him and I sighed "I don't see how but okay" I say with a giggle not wanting to argue around with him but he rolled his eyes and grabbed onto my hand pulling my arm to wrap around his neck and I rolled my eyes hugging onto him like he wanted and he hugged me back "Lola" I hear him mumble against my shoulder as I pulled away to look at him "yes Chazzy?" I ask sweetly giving him a soft smile "that one night you know when you kissed me?" He asks trying to jog my memory and I nodded letting my arms fall off him and into my lap "did you want to? Or was it cause you were drunk?" He asked me looking down at his hand and I sighed swallowing deeply shrugging my shoulders "I don't know Chaz..maybe" I said as he looked at me quickly furrowing his brows "maybe to what?" He asked making me cover my face as I thought about what I should tell him "maybe I wanted to" I said moving my fingers as I looked at his reaction but he just sat there in silence and I sighed going to get off the bed but he stopped me by grabbing my hand and pulling me back down to the bed as he pressed his lips against mine catching me by surprise but luckily my brain knew what I wanted and I kissed him back, I rested my hands gently on the sides of his neck as he ran his hands around my back our lips still moving in sync with each others feeling him lower me down against his pillows as he hovered over me our tongues fighting with each other in our mouths and I felt his hand run along my stomach across my shirt then under it making me tense up a little, this was all new to me. I pressed my hand against shoulder pushing him back slightly making him part from my lips his breathing a little heavy "what's wrong?" He asked looking at me with love filled eyes making me sigh "I don't know if we should be doing this" I told him honestly as he just looked at me sadly and nodded "okay if you don't want to it's fine" he said to me sitting down across from me and I sighed sitting up properly "it's not that I don't want to Chaz I'm worried about what it's gonna do to us" I tell him truthfully watching him run his hands along his shaved head and sigh nodding "you're right Lola, let's just forget this ever happened and finish the movie" he said scooting back up beside me as I sighed lying down and wrapping my arms around him as I rested my head on his chest "I'm sorry Chaz" I mumble to him and I hear him hum "you don't have to be sorry Lola, you have a point and it's okay" he reassures me making me nod my head as I fix my eyes on his tv and we continue watching the movie.

WOW this took me way too damn long to get up I'm so fucking sorry, this chapter is still kinda being edited so the ending might change but I just wanted to get this chapter up because I've been gone for so long from this story and I'm so damn sorry. Please forgive me lol the next chapter WILL be up sooner than this one was. Wow I suck lol