Damage*ON HOLD*

Chapter seven

*warning: sex.*

As I sit on the bed leaned up against the bunches of pillows I look at Cole who's taking his shirt off and undoing his jeans before he crawls into the bed hovering over me as he crashes his lips into mine causing me to wrap my arms around his neck gripping onto his hair feeling his hands run up my bare leg as he grips onto my underwear making me tense up as I feel him pull them from my hips and down my legs tossing them onto the floor, I look up at him as he lowers himself into me feeling a sharp stretching pain shoot through the lower half of my body causing me to shut my eyes tight feeling Cole kiss me before he moves inside me thrusting his hips fast instantly without letting me adjust making me claw into his back as he grunts against my lips, everything about this felt wrong and it hurt like hell I knew it would but I wanted this at least I think I did hell 18 years of my life I've been living like a nun and I don't want that anymore, after about 10 minutes his thrusts got sloppier and then he just moaned slightly into my ear before rolling off me as I look over to him he gets out of bed and begins to put his clothes on "what're you doing?" I ask him as he sighs sliding his shirt over his head "I need to go home I uhm have to watch my little sister she just texted me" he said waving around his phone and I sighed rolling my eyes as I watch him leave the room. As I lay on my stomach I hear the door open making me look to it seeing Chaz concern spread across his face "what happened Lola? Did that guy hurt you?" He asks me rushing over to me as I sit up in the bed I didn't care that Chaz was seeing me in my bra at this point "no Chaz he didn't" I say to him feeling tears start to burn at my eyes "but I regret doing it now" my voice cracks as tears start to stream down my cheeks watching as Chaz searches around for something handing me my underwear, shirt, and overalls "get dressed I'm gonna get you out of here" he says and I do as he says watching as he turns around while I get dressed then I grab onto his arm to let him know I was done and as soon as he turns around I wrap my arms around him and just cry into his shoulder feeling him rub my back "it's okay Lola you're gonna be okay" he whispers to me as I grip onto his jacket tighter and tighter "I don't know what I did it Chaz I wish I didn't" I cry against him and he sighs leading us out of the room and out of the house even though Anna tried to stop us Chaz ignored her and helped me into his car luckily he wasn't drunk whatsoever and didn't act tipsy or buzzed either as he started his car driving away from Anna's house.
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"It's really nice to meet you Lola" Chaz's mom Rose said to me as she shook my hand causing me to smile "it's nice to finally meet you too Rose" I say to her looking to Chaz as he smiles taking my hand in his "we're pretty tired mom so we're just gonna go to bed" he told his mom as she nodded "okay darling good night" she says going back to the kitchen and we go to Chaz's room, I sit on his bed looking around his room before looking to him seeing him taking off his jacket and unbuttoning his shirt "you doing okay?" He asks me walking over to me as he sits on the bed "yeah I feel fine now I'm kind of over it" I mumble picking at my nails looking down at my hands "you wanted to do it though right? He didn't force you?" He asks me touching my arm making me look at him "I wanted to Chaz don't worry I wish I didn't want to cause now I regret every second of it I'm so dumb" I say lying back onto the bed covering my face hearing him sigh "you're not dumb Lola you were drunk" he says trying to make me feel better as I shake my head "I just want to forget about it" I say to him standing from his bed "do you have anything I could sleep in?" I ask him watching him nod as he stands to his feet and looks for a shirt, again all his clothes along with Mike's were bigger than them and especially bigger than me, he hands me one of his shirts turning around so he wasn't watching me undress at this point I didn't really care anymore as I slide his shirt over my head it draped over me falling to my mid thigh and I sigh wrapping my arms around him as he turns around to look at me "I should've just stayed there and waited for you" I mumble resting my head against his chest hearing him sigh "I shouldn't have left you knowing how drunk you were" he says rubbing my back leading us back to his bed "don't blame yourself for this Chaz you had to use the bathroom i can't hate you for that that would be so stupid" I say laughing slightly as I look up at him "true I guess, you could've waited outside the bathroom" he says making me shake my head patting from him "Chazzy it's fine, it happened and I just want to forget about it and go to sleep" I explain to him seeing him nod as I crawl into the blankets looking to him as he changes into his plaid pajamas pants leaving his tank top on before crawling into bed with me "good night Lola" he says to me turning to his side his back facing me while I laid in my back looking at his blonde spikes "good night Chaz" I tell him relaxing into his pillows feeling myself drift off to sleep.