Lately all of my friends have started to fade away like how the morning fog rolls out just after the sun has risen; not quickly but rather fading away inch by inch until the air is clear. But I'm used to it. I'm used to people leaving me and hurting me to the point that I don't for relationships with others.
I guess it all started with you. When I told you. I had enough strength to tell you, someone who I thought I could trust, and then you go and blame it on me. But somehow we still talk, like somehow you forgot. Forgot that out of your own selfishness you abandoned you own best friend when she needed you the most.
Then came others, the type of friends you know you won't talk to after you graduate. There are three friends that are like this. The first one lies, not on her own accord, but instead of petty lies like "no I wasn't talking behind you back" it's more of a "I'm fine" type of lie. She knows that I know she's not okay, she has to. But we have been growing apart because of our own battles going on in our head. The first friend also sees me as sort of a replacement, trying to find someone to fill the void. But I still love this person, why? They hurt me so bad but I know it's not her fault.
The second friend. Probably the best out of the three. This person is funny, outgoing, and compassionate. But like the best of us, he has a fatal flaw. He is so full of hatred, saying that he hates people he has never met. This doesn't really drift us apart though, it's more of just an annoyance to me. What really drifts us apart, is again out of our control. We hardly have any time to talk to each other. From completely different class schedules to practices, it's almost as if we are just acquaintances when some nights I spill my heart out to him because he is the only one I can trust and who will actually help.
I mentioned three friends, the last one I will not bore you with, for the only problem with this person is they are just an awful person.
