Jewel I (In the beginning)

Chapter 20

        Three days ago my middle school crush lost his life and it was partly my fault. If only I could have just kept my mouth shut then he would still be here. it's just so hard to believe that he is gone. That seat in front of me in seventh period will now be empty and it's my fault.

        Over the last couple of days, I just been sulking around. I'm sure that Elijah and Ciroc noticed how I have been upset and hurt about the whole situation.

        In two hours, I have school and I was too scared to go. I didn't go to school yesterday because I didn't want to deal with everyone starring me down and blaming me for this. I'm pretty sure that Mane, Mia, and Mary told everyone that it was on me. I was too scared of the blame. All these what ifs were going threw my head. I was clueless of what would happen. I thought that Mane might try to jump on me again.

        I stood up in front of Ciroc's closet mirror and stared at myself. I hadn't put on any makeup and the bags under my eyes were huge. My eyes were heavy and my stomach was touching my back. I hadn't ate in two days.

        Ciroc walked in the room looking cute. I felt ugly. Ciroc had on a red spagetti strap shirt with a black blazer, some black dress pants and some red heels.

        "Why you so dressy?" I asked, fixing my curls in the mirror.

        "it's classy day." She answered, walking beside me and putting on some mascara. "You okay?"

        "I'm fine. I'm scared."

        "Don't be scared. Be strong. You got to stop blaming yourself."

        "Everybody else is blaming me."

        "Jewel? You bugging. Just get through the rest of this week and you don't have to deal with it anymore you already missed school yesterday."

        "Imma try."

        I grabbed my bag and a couple other things. Elijah wad picking me up from school. He wanted to do something to take my mind off Claud 's death.

        "You ready?" Asked ciroc.

        "Yeah." I said following behind ciroc to Nikey 's car.

       

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        Ding! Ding! Ding! Went the school bell for seventh period. I started walking to class slowly. This was my last period and the hardest part of the day.

        All day, it was silence. No one said anything. In the hallways, the only thing you could hear was weeping and sniffing.

        When I finally reached my destination, I walked in starring at the ground. When I sat down in my seat, tears filled my eyes.

        The sight of the empty desk in front of me left me horrified. I couldn't take it anymore. I busted out in tears and other people started letting it out too. Before I knew it, the whole class was a heaping roar of sorrow.

        I asked Mrs Dubose if I could be excused. She allowed me to leave the classroom.

        I went straight to the bathroom and called Elijah. He answered on the second ring.

        "Hello?" He said

        "Can you please come get me now?" I begged.

        "Go outside. Imma be there in five minutes."

        "okay."

        I disconnected the call and went to my locker. I threw all my books in my locker and walked out the closest exit door. I snuck around the school to the front and waited on a bench.

        Five minutes later, Elijah was pulling up. I got in the car quickly and put on my seat belt. Then Elijah pulled off.

        "Thank you." I said wiping my face.

        "no problem. I was just getting finish with my last class." He said

         We didn't exchange anymore words. We rode in silence the whole ride to Elijah's house.

        Soon as we got in the house I went directly to Elijah's room and got in his bed. He got in behind me and we just cuddled until we fell asleep.

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        I woke up at ten o'clock. Elijah wasn't in bed with me. I didn't notice that I was sleep that long. The long nap left me a little bit more relaxed.

        on the nightstand beside the bed was a letter from Elijah that read.

        I went to go handle some business. I will be back with something for you to eat. Try to go back to sleep. I love you.

        Was he crazy?  After that eight hour nap, I was wide awake.  I pickled up my phone and I had seven missed calls. Four from ciroc, two from Renee and one from an unknown number.

        I decided to call the unknown number first. A man answered the phone on the third ring.

        "Wussup?" Said the guy on the other line.

        "Who is this?" I asked.

        "You called me."

        "Yeah but you called me earlier so who is this?"

        "Meet me at Browns café tomorrow at four right after the funeral."

        "I'm not meeting you anywhere until you tell me your name."

        "You don't know my name but I know yours."

        "Who is this? What do you want from me?"

        "I have a surprise for you Jewel. I know your gonna love to see him."

        With that, the unknown person hung up the phone.