Ana in Wonderland

Rents'

I rarely

discussed

the topic

of my parents.

I mostly,

at all costs,

tried to avoid

the thought

of them.

My parents,

young and bored,

married

for the reason

being

they simply could.

My mother

had not

wanted

children.

I was an accident,

but as a child

she liked to

remind me that

she rarely

made mistakes.

I

being

her

most

grave

one.

Though I was a surprise,

my father

and the Christian

deep within him

found it sinful

to kill a fetus.

So I was born.

I can't help

but wonder

as I throw up

my dinner

and the word

relapse

repeats

in my head

that maybe

if they would

have killed me

it would have

saved a ton

of people

from pain

and mishap.