Regret

{ Eleven }

I didn't get much sleep last night, because of what happened at the mall. I felt bad still, but I thought I finally don't have to hide the fact that I love Jungkook more, because in front of Jimin, I have to act like I love him, but when it's not true.

But I don't have the courage to tell Jungkook how I really feel for him, first of all, I don't want to ruin the friendship we have now and second of all, I'm not sure who is it, but it sounds so familiar. 

{ 5 months later }

It been 5 months, and I still haven't told Jungkook about how I feel. It is the end of the semester and we already graduated. Finally today will be the day I will confess to Jungkook, about how I really feel, and he is the person I loved the most. 

I walked my way to Jungkook's house, and I knocked on the door and waited patiently for someone to open the door for me. I waited for 5 minutes, but no one came to open the door, I knocked once again. Nothing. 

"Is he still sleeping?" I thought in my mind. I walked over to the window and peeked inside, and all I saw was a empty living room. What? Did they move house? And Jungkook did not even tell me? I took out my phone and dialed Taehyung's number.

{ Hello? Soo Min? } - Tae
{ Hey Tae, do you know where Jungkook is? } - SM
{ No why? } - Tae
{ Um... His house is empty? } - SM
{ What? What do you mean? } - Tae
{ Come over and you get what I mean } - SM

I hung up and waited for Taehyung to get over, his house it close to Jungkook's house so he didn't take long. He waved to me as he sees me standing in front of the empty house. He arrived and he looked inside the window, and then he looked back at me.

"Why is it empty?" He asked as he scratches the back of his head. "That's exactly what I asked on the phone!" I said and slapped his head. Then he quickly dialed Jungkook's number, "It won't work.." I said but later got cut off by Taehyung speaking to Jungkook.

"Yah! Jeon Jungkook! Where the hell are you? Why is your house empty?!" Taehyung shouted through the phone. I signaled him to put on loud speaker so I can hear what Jungkook is saying. "Ah, why are you there? I wanted to tell you guys only when I arrive, but since you asked, I'm moving out of Korea."

"WHAT?!" I yelled. "What? Is that Soo Min? She's there too? Yaah I didn't want her to be sad, so I didn't tell any of you." Jungkook said with a nervous laugh. "You think I won't be sad if you suddenly disappear? What are you thinking?! I rather you tell me before! I Hate You!" I yelled and walked away.

I heard Taehyung chasing after me as he talked on the phone with Jungkook. "Soo Min! Wait!" Taehyung yelled "Jungkook! Where are you right now?" He continued after calling for me. Then Taehyung caught up and he pulled me to the opposite direction.

"What? Where are we going?" I asked, "He might not have left yet, we still might have the chance to meet him." What? Part of me don't want to meet him, but part of me does. But I've already regret not telling him how I feel, I don't want to miss this chance to say goodbye.

I let Taehyung drag me all the way to the airport, and he started searching for Jungkook after we arrive at the airport. I just followed him as he search high and low for Jungkook, then suddenly he rushed to a terminal, and that was it.

He was standing at the entrance of the terminal, he had everything ready, his bag pack, his passport in his hands, and his headset. I felt like my legs stopped working for a moment, I was glued in place, I didn't dare to move any closer to him. 

Taehyung tried pulling me, but it didn't work. He waved and called out his name, I really felt like hitting him when he called him over. He noticed Taehyung and he slowly walked over, the closer he gets, the more he looks down to the floor.

He finally stopped in front of me, none of us talked. Then he finally spoke up, "I'm.. sorry." He said, as he peeks at me. "Sorry? Do you think of me as a best friend? Do you think I won't be sad if you left without saying anything? How could you? Why.." I was then cut off by Jungkook.