starting over *hayes grier fanfiction*

chapter 7

its been a week since mine and hayes little "break" happened. he hasnt came out of his room or talked to anyone since it happened.

"can i come in?" i jerk my head to the door to see shawn standing in the doorway.

"hey shawn!" i say greeting him inside.

"i need to tell you something." he said not looking at me.

"yeah? what is it?" i say.

"im engaged." he says.

"what? thats fantastic!" i say giving him a hug.

i put on a smile, but inside.. my heart was broken in a thousand pieces. why do i feel like this?

i pushed my feelings aside and put on a smile so shawn wouldnt suspect anything.

"i wanted you to be the maid of honor." he said pulling away from our hug.

"i would love too!" i say. "whos the lucky girl?" i say with a smirk.

"her name is peyton." he replies.

"peyton.? peyton what..?" i say.

"conner." he replies.

peyton conner.

"chelsey?"

the girl that used me so that she could be with hayes.

"chelsey...?!"

the girl i thought was my best friend.

"chelsey!? are you okay?!" shawn yells.

i snap out of my thoughts and i know that i cant go to that wedding.

"i cant go to the wedding." i reply trying to hold back the tears.

"why? i want you there!" he replies.

"im busy that day..."

"i didnt tell you the day.?"

"WELL IM BUSY OKAY!?" i scream.

the tears start to come. i dont want shawn to marry peyton. i dont want him to marry anyone. once he gets married... i lost him. i lost my best friend.

but is that all im fearing to lose?

"shawn, i dont think its a good idea for me to go. im sorry, but thats the way it has to be. bye shawn."

he walked out of my room, leaving me there to cry. he didnt ask why, and its better that he didnt.

i need to sort out my feelings. i love shawn, but at the same time i love hayes. i cant love shawn though, hes getting married.. and i cant change that. hayes is who im meant to be with.

i walk over to hayes' room because we needed to be together. i need him and i know he needs me. we hold eachoter together.

i knock on his door and he comes running to open it. his eyes were puffy and he had red tear stained cheaks.

"hayes..." i whisper. i try to say more but i get choked up.

"why am i such a screw up? why cant i just keep the girl i want. the girl i love. the girl i need. you mean the world to me, chelsey. and losing you is like losing my life. you are my life. you mean everything to me.. and i cant keep losing you. i love you chelsey. i love you. i love you." he starts crying and walks back to his bed and sits on it.

"i love you so much hayes. i need you too." i say pulling him into a hug. "please promise me that we will be together forever."

he looks at me and smiles. "i promise." we both lean in and kiss.

sparks.

the sparks i havent felt in a long time.

hayes, this is who i am meant to be with.

shawn was just a summer love. right?

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im aware that shawn would be like 20 right now.. but hey. people get married young.. so yolo. lol. havent updated in a while.

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