If You Only Knew The Truth (Jinkook)

New Start?

*Jin POV*
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I woke up and started to think while no one was in the room. If they think I don't remember anything then that might be an  opportunity to die faster! I just have to act. I just want to end my suffering. I want to be happy but we all know that we can't have all the things in life. Why is life so unfair? Please, tell me why? I decided to fall asleep while I was lost in my thoughts. I see Yoongi, Namjoon, Hoseok, Jimin, Taehyung, and Jungkook laughing at each other. I can't help but shed some tears. 'Would they be happy if die?' I thought. I just started to sob.

" WHY?!" I yelled.

"WHY AM I SUCH A MISTAKE TO THIS WORLD?!"

"We can change that. You just have to die to make everyone happy again. Even ARMYs would be happy. Look."

I followed the voice and saw a screen. "KIM NAMJOON, MIN YOONGI, JUNG HOSEOK, PARK JIMIN, KIM TAEHYUNG, JEON JEONGGUK, BTS!!!"

" I'm so glad that Jin killed himself" one says.

"I agree!"
Then I was then left alone in the dark, cold, tired and sobbing.

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*Jeongguk POV*

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I'm sad that Jinnie doesn't remember me. I am happy that he doesn't remember his past. He has a new start I guess. I want him to be happy and make him love himself. I decided to visit him while I have time. I was walking to his room and I was told he was sleeping. I love him and all but why does he sleep so much now? (A/N ro0D) I get that he's tired but Jin has never slept so much. I sat in the chair closes to him. I then fall asleep as well.
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I wake up to see Jin crying. "Jin why are you crying?" I ask.
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*Jin POV*
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I wake up sobbing. I was sobbing for about 2 minuets until I hear Jungkook say "Jinnie why are you crying?"

I guess I have to act now.

" I just had a bad dream that's all."

" Ok." It's really easy to lie to them isn't? I can't help but cry more. I just want to go home and get everything over with.

*Later*

I guess I've been sleeping a lot lately. I wake up to 6 sleeping men. I see that it's already 3:54 a.m. . I just wanna go home. I overheard that I'll be discharged tomorrow. I just feel sleepy all the time now. When I sleep it feels like I'm dead. That'd be nice. Out of nowhere I fell asleep.

*5 hrs later*

" I love you!" I heard Jungkook. I don't want to open my eyes. I'm too tired. "Jinnie! The doctor is here to see if you can get discharged today!" "Ok." I open my eyes and see the doctor and Jungkook. They did a few checks on me and stuff then said I can leave in 1 hour. Jungkook and him were talking about me outside the door. " You said he doesn't remember anything right?" " Yes"
"Try to make him remember but don't try to hard." " Ok doctor thank you" I hear them open the door and I pretended to be asleep.
"He sleeps too much now" Jungkook said. I ended up falling asleep again. ( A/N sorry I keep making him sleep so much.)

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*Yoongi POV*
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Jin could have of died! I'm an idiot for not watching him carefully. I start crying because I messed up. I guess I was crying too loud because Hoseok came into my room and hugged me. " It's ok." " No it's not! He could of died Hoseok! If he died it would have been my fault!" " Shh it's ok. None of this is your fault. He's coming home today." I just continue crying until I have no energy left and sleep on Hoseok.
*Later*
I wake up and see Hoseok hugging me. Our faces were only 2 inches away from each other.
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*Hoseok POV*
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I see Yoongi all flustered. He was all red.
"Damn did you come down with a fever or what?" He just stared at me with shock. 'What did I do wrong?' He stayed quite for a few minutes. " S-So you don't know what happened?" He said " No" I reply. " His face got even redder. " Hey are you ok? Do you need to go to the doctor? Did you catch a fever?" He was blushing hard. I think he has a fever. I lean over to check but my hand slipped. I kissed him on his lips. He didn't move. I didn't move. It felt like I wanted more. ( A/N I'll save that for another chapter 😉. )

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*Jin POV*
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I was in the van hearing my music play through my headphones.

"It's not that I believe it
But that I want to try holding out
Because this is
All that I can do
I want to remain
I want to dream more
Even so, what I'm saying is
That it's time to leave

Yeah it's my truth
It's my truth
I will be covered with wounds all over
But it's my fate
It's my fate
Still, I want to struggle and fight

Maybe I, I can never fly
I can't fly like the flower petals over there
Or as though I have wings
Maybe I, I can't touch the sky
Still, I want to stretch my hand out
I want to run, just a bit more

I'm just walking and walking, among this darkness
My happy times asked me this question
You, are you really okay, it asked me
Oh no
I replied, no, I'm so afraid
Still, I hold the 6 flowers tightly in my hands
I, I'm just walking, I said
Oh no

But it's my fate
It's my fate
Still, I want to struggle and fight

Maybe I, I can never fly
I can't fly like the flower petals over there
Or as though I have wings
Maybe I, I can't touch the sky
Still, I want to stretch my hand out
I want to run, just a bit more

Wide awake wide awake wide awake
Don't cry
Wide awake wide awake wide awake
No lie
Wide awake wide awake wide awake
Don't cry
Wide awake wide awake wide awake
No lie

Maybe I, I can never fly
I can't fly like the flower petals over there
Or as though I have wings
Maybe I, I can't touch the sky
Still, I want to stretch my hand out
I want to run,
Just a bit more"

I feel tears rolling down my cheeks. "Jin, why are you crying?" " Nothing. It's just that this song is really sad." I say. " What song is it?" He asked " Awake by me" " Oh so you remember that!" " Yeah."  Tears continue to roll down cheeks. " Hyung we're here" "Ok." 

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A/N
Sorry for not updating!  This chapter was really crappy... Anyways
Have A great day lovelies!💕