hello guys! Sorry for this short chapter, Tomorrow's will be much longer than this!
yoongi's pov
I called over Y/N when to a cafe and the guys were back at the dorm, "So, what's going on?" she said and I sighed, "Can you help me for the proposal that i'm going to do for Jin?" and she looked surprised and smiled widely, "Of course! What should I do?" and we went on talking.
After the talk of the surprise I had to tell her on what namjoon said to me, "Hey, um, Namjoon wanted me to give you this" i said, handing her a letter and she gulped, "What's this for?" she said and i shrugged, "He knew I was going to meet you and he told me to just give you that, see you later" I said and left. I sighed and walked off knowning I was the one who wrote the letter.
jin's pov
Seeing Namjoon broke me, but what broke me most is that Yoongi and I don't sleep in the same bed. I don't know why or what I did, but i stopped going to therapy, I finished all my pills and needed refills, but i studder then and there. I soon became back to my suicidal, cutting and hiding my scars with sleeves, it hurt me but it was for the best. I have scars all over my thighs mostly, some in my arms but they werent noticeable.
It was June 1st and the boys and I decided to go for a swim. Of course i didn't, because of the cuts i had. So i stayed off with Jimin, "Jin! get in the water with us" said Hoseok, I shook my head and I did bought extra clothes, most likely knee shorts, I was wearing a pair already and Hobi puled me into the water, my cuts stinged that i yelped and ran back out. I didn't look at my scars and Hobi decided to, he was very shocked, "Jin.... How long has this been happening?" He said very disapointed in me and I didn't respond, "Hey what's going on?" Yoongi asked and Hobi pulled up my shorts only to reveal my scars and fresh cuts, "Jin, what the fuck?" Yoongi said, I got up and tried to leave but i was grabbed by him, "Why did you do this kind of shit? You really thought you would keep this a secret from me??" he raised his voice, "Enough Yoongi" Hobi said, "No! I trusted you enough to not fucking do this again. Fuck you Seokjin!" He yelled, "Min Yoongi Enough!" Namjoon yelled and he looked back, "Stay out of this Namjoon" he hissed, I just pulled away from his embrace and left running.
I couldn't believe what he was saying. All of it is just replaying into my head, I ran into a convenient store and bought alcohol and some food to eat. I stayed outside in daylight at a hill, drinking and eating. I felt numb, weak, dumb for being with someone like Yoongi. I walked half sober, half drunk back to the dorm. Everyone looked at me and I just walked to the restroom. I closed and locked the door, soon i unlocked my secret drawer and pulled out my razor. I soon swiped deep into my wrist, I kept doing it until it hurt right where it does. Soon i pull out the razor and go in for another slice. Tears streaming and soon i fill up the bathtub with water and keep it luke warm just for me.
I soon sit on the bathtub with clothes on, I didn't bother to undress, tears keep on falling and i feel burn into my skin for the cuts i've made. I lay my head back and slowly drift to sleep.
3rd person pov
"Yoongi what the fuck is wrong with you?! You became much of a dickhead these days!" Namjoon yelled at his hyung while the younger members weren't there, "What about Y/N?! Why did you cheat on her??" He yelled back, "I was drunk and thought differently. This isn't about me, it's about you! You do realise that saying those words will make him feel more worthless than he already is?! You have no soul and a heart for him Min Yoongi! You know, don't ever talk to me until you become more caring enough" he left with that. All of them were back at the dorm, Yoongi punched a mirror leaving his knuckles bleeding. Namjoon tried to talk to Jin but he wouldn't open the door.
"Jimin, call and ambulance hurry!! Jin please wake up, please!" Namjoon said shaking his hyung, Jimin went to call an ambulance meanwhile V, Kook, and Hobi were by Namjoon trying to wake him up too. Yoongi, was shocked. 'It's dejaboo' he thought, he went to punch the wall and it left a hole there and he found something in there. He kept on breaking the wall and soon he found a brown dusty letter and box, that it read, 'Seokjin.' He heard the ambulance sirens and he quickly covered the hole with the broken mirror and ran back, leaving the stuff from his one and only Seokjin. He was disappointed in himself, he blames all of this to himself. He was very harsh on Jin and he definitely knew that he was, he couldn't help but sob at the thought of him dead. He couldn't help but cry for the bad things he did to him. 'Tomorrow will be better' is all that he thought.
