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She Tried It

Kikah's POV:

It's been 2 weeks since RoRo's spider bite and thank God she's fully recovered. The swelling in her face and arms had finally gone away. My baby bounced right back from the incident, as if it had never happened. She was feeling great and I was relieved.

Taemin had been staying the night often now, but since that night has opted to sleep on the sofa or in our daughter's room.

For the most part, we have done a decent job of avoiding the hell out of bringing up what happened between us.

My mind was so confused. I loved him and wanted him, sometimes more than air, but I still couldn't completely get over the past. It always seemed to linger at the back of my mind. Invading my thoughts and wreaking chaos on my psyche.

What he said and the things he did back then, they still hurt. Sure, I forgave him for it but I wasn't sure if I could heal from it, or if I even knew how to heal from it. I wasn't sure if I could trust him like that again.

At least, not fully. I mean, I trusted him with our daughter and his love for her. I trusted that he won't break a promise and that he was sincere when he told me he was wrong. I even trusted him when he told me that he still loved me. However, I wasn't sure if I could trust that if we got back together something else wouldn't try and rip up apart. If I could trust that my heart could once again be safe with him.

I couldn't stop thinking about it.

'If we did get back together and it didn't work out again, how it would affect Aurora? How she would take that sort of drastic change? How would we treat each other? What if one of us tried to use Aurora to get back at the other? Were we even petty enough to do something like that to each other? '

The list of questions that ran through my mind seemed endless and left me with a headache.

The bottom line was, I was caught in a massive struggle between logic and feelings. No matter what I chose, each one presented its own set of problems to deal with.

Thank God work had been keeping me busy lately, or else I would have cracked.

I had to fire more people and that made me sad. I kept reminding myself that these people had brought it on themselves by continuing to under-perform. One had even made a racially motivated insult towards Evaine'!

I had a zero tolerance for that shit, so he had to go. I would not have that sort of mind set in my company. Even though she said it didn't bother her and that she was used to it, I gave her the day off and paid for her to go to the spa. It was the least I could do.

I ended up giving the office the day off as well. We all needed a break. Personally, I was in need of something that hadn't happened since before I had gotten pregnant.

Taking out my phone, I made the call and she answered on the second ring.

"I need a girl's night." I sighed, tiredly into the receiver.

Laughing, Irene exclaimed. "Then it's ON! I'll call up the girls and we'll hit the club tonight. I was wondering when you would finally crack."

I giggled. "I know--I know. At least, its happening before Aurora went to college." I was already feeling much better.

Maybe a girl's night was just what the doctor ordered, so that I could clear my head enough to figure out my feelings.

I just hoped this night wouldn't end in disaster.

That night:

Taemin decided to hangout at my place with Aurora, while I hit the club. I hadn't been to a club in so long. I didn't even have club clothes anymore. So, before heading home from the office, I stopped by the mall. I wanted something that showed off my body but didn't really show a lot of skin and something that I could dance in. After 20 minutes of searching through the racks I finally found something cute and I knew exactly what would go with it.