Learning to Breath

CHAPTER TWLEVE

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⛔️⛔️Marhi P.O.V⛔️⛔️

I stayed behind the shower curtain waiting for whoever it was busting in my house I really just wanted my dad to come home so I could catch a break from these crazy ass people who were coming after me. Killing wasn't my favorite thing to do but clearly if I wanted to survive I had to do whatever it is I had to do, I was really only worried about protecting myself at any cost. It had been a good minute or two and no one had come in. I heard a soft knock on the door followed by my fathers low voice. "Marhi come out the bathroom, please." A wave of relief washed over me, but yet I was still anxious. I didn't really want to face anyone let alone my father, I felt dirty and stupid for what happened to me.... I let it happen, I blamed no one but myself. Yet my brother and Sincere were walking around like it was their fault, I did blame them at first but they honestly weren't in the wrong. I guess I took to long to respond because I heard the door knob rattle. I snapped away from my consuming thoughts, pulling the shower curtain open and stepped out of the tub. Gun still in hand I unlocked the door and only opened it slightly. After seeing that it was really my father on the other side of the door I let out a long sigh of relief.

He looked at me and he looked so lost and distraught I couldn't help but believe that his emotions were my fault too. If I would've just called for help sooner everything would be fine right now. I was snatched out of my thoughts by him taking the gun out of my hand and sitting it on my vanity. He pulled me into a much needed hug and all I could do was cry I was tired of crying but I couldn't stop for the life of me it was like I had no control over it. My knees became weak and we both wound up on the floor clinging onto each other like one of us would be snatched away at any second. I was getting support from Sincere and a little from my brother but this embrace was what I had been waiting for since everything happened. I was honestly so happy that my dad was finally home again.

⛔️⛔️Trevor P.O.V⛔️⛔️

I didn't even know what to say to my baby. I wasn't there to protect her in her time of need. I held a little anger towards King and Sincere for not being there either, I felt like if I couldn't be there I expected them to do what was necessary. I knew that I honestly couldn't blame nobody but the sick bastards who did this. I wanted to make them pay for causing my baby girl so much pain, but fortunately for them they had already been taking care of. I still needed to hear the story behind that cause Sin told me that Marhi was the one who put them down. I honestly struggled with this shit since I heard about it. In this time I felt like my babygirl need her mother, I had never dealt with no shit like this and I didn't want to make anything worst. I decided I wouldn't call Tashanda but I would call my mom instead I needed some guidance and I needed it now. "Did you eat today?" I asked. I didn't know what else to say, I just knew that I had to make sure she was taking care of herself. "No" she replied I picked her up bridal style and I put her in her bed and headed out of her room "I'll be back... with food, you have to eat something." That was the last thing I said to her before I made my way to my room.

I sat on my bed and got consumed by my thoughts. When I heard about that shit the other I had to stay away from anything walking. I had so much anger but I knew I had to make it to that hearing without a problem if I wanted to be here for my daughter. I was bound to catch another murder charge if I didn't keep to myself. I got out on bail this morning my actual court date was in two weeks and I'll be on house arrest until then since I'm such a "flight risk". I was making a priority to get in contact with a couple of judges and cops that owed me favors, from back in the day. I wanted the most time I did IF I did time to be no more than six months. I barely wanted to do that but I knew it would be hard for me to completely get off. When I saw that my midget wasn't there today it made everything drag out and it made me so mad. The only reason I could come up with for her not being there was, that she was mad because I wasn't there to protect her and this was... payback. I came in this house with wholehearted intentions of being mad, but once I saw how broken and lost my little girl was that shit went out the window. I pulled out my phone and called my mother, I hadn't talked to her in months it was always some bullshit when I called but I knew she was there if I needed her. And right now I needed her more than anything. I listened as the phone rung, waiting for her to answer. "Hello?" She spoke in a hard voice. "Ma I really need you." I told her with so much pain in my voice "Trevor what happened baby ?" Her voice softer this time and she waited for me to speak. "Can you come over?" I asked knowing I'd probably have to ask her a couple more times before she agreed. I heard shuffling in the background "Gimmie ten minutes Trev, I'll be right there" I was surprised when heard her say that without a hassle. I said ok then I hung up the phone. I text her and asked her to stop by the seafood place around the corner to get Marhi some food, after she responded I laid back in my bed letting my mind run free.

I didn't realize I dosed off until my mom was shaking me to wake me up. I looked at her and I could tell she could see every emotion that I was holding inside of me like I wore them as a sleeve. She pulled me into her arms into a warm embrace where all I could do was cry. "What happened Trev, talk to me baby". She said with concern laced in her voice. "I let them hurt my baby ma, I was posed to protect her and I let that sick son of a bitch rape her." She was taken aback when she heard what I said, but for that moment all my mother did was listen to me as I vented to her, not saying a word.

⛔️⛔️ Sincere P.O.V⛔️⛔️

Everybody in this damn house was depressed or affected in some way by what happened to Marhi, I mean I didn't blame them that shit even hurt me man. I watched as Granny Fran came in the house like a mad woman. She handed me and King some food and told us to feed Marhi. "Can you feed her bro, I can't take seeing her like that" King asked me I just look at him as I nodded. I didn't know if it was me or what but it seemed like King was distancing himself from all of us especially Marhi. "She need you bro sooner or later you gone have to grow some and face ya fears, you scared to keep seeing her like that but you can't push her out if you want her to get any better" I preached to him before we started heading up the stairs. "I hear you man" he sighed and walked off to his room. I went in Marhi room and she was just laying in the bed starring up at the ceiling. "Ya gran brought your favorite food" she looked over and I could tell she was trying to suppress the little bit of excitement she felt. I went and sat on my side of her bed, I had claimed it already. I handed her the platter and snatched a shrimp off her plate earning a glare from her. "Yo did you even brush yo teeth today ?" She rolled her eyes at me "Ion know why ya family letting you walk around like this but..." I stopped talking as I went in her bathroom and came out bringing her a cup of mouthwash. "Fix that shit yo, I can't have you out here smelling like that." I sat down watching her ignore me. She finished eating and got up walking into the bathroom. I heard water running and she came back blowing her breath in my face I mushed her before I realized her breath ain't stink no more. "I got something to ask you" the question I was bout to ask had been on my mind a lot and I think I was ready to ask her. "Wassup ?" She spoke for the first time since I had been in here.

"Did he nut in you Amarhi ?" I noticed that I only seemed to use her full name when I was serious. She nodded and began to shed silent tears. I told her I would be back and headed out to planned parenthood. I got what I needed and headed back towards the house. Getting there and getting back only took about 45 minutes. I knew it had been a little over 72 hours so hopefully this shit worked. I went to her room and saw her in the same spot I left her in. I filled a cup with water in her bathroom and handed it to her, I passed her the plan B and with no hesitation she took it. "Thank you" she said and gave me a warm smile, the smile I'd do anything to keep on her face. "I really appreciate you being here for me...I know it's my fault and all but you're the only one who hasn't left me to deal with this on my own." She said to me never breaking eye contact. I pulled her into to a hug "Marhi don't ever think it's you're fault that there is something wrong with them dumb bitches." I was telling her the truth she honestly had to stop blaming herself. "If I would've just yelled for help and not thought I was big and bad and could handle it by myself we wouldn't be here." She said this like I was gone change my mind about this not being her fault. I pulled her away and looked into her eyes "Marhi we would still be here, we wouldn't have heard you until there no matter what you did differently, almost getting raped is just as traumatizing even if we did get to you sooner so please... stop blaming yourself."

I did as I had for the past couple nights. I got in her bed and let her sleep on my chest. I just couldn't stop thinking about how much I wanted to protect her. "I promise I'll never let a soul walking this earth hurt you ever again man... you got my word" I said kissing her forehead assuming she was sleep.

Ok nutty chapter I know I know but the next chalets will have a couple things happen. 😘😘 Vote & Comment, and pleas excuse any mistakes