Learning to Breath

CHAPTER ELEVEN

⛔️⛔️Amarhi P.O.V.⛔️⛔️

I woke up the next day around four fifteen in the afternoon. I looked around my room for Sincere but he was no where to be found. I frowned but then my eyes landed on someone sitting at my vanity on their phone. My heart raced ,but I soon realized it was King and my heart rate slowed. I cleared my throat catching his attention. "Good Morning Marhi... how you feeling?" He asked passing me a food platter. I honestly didn't know how to answer that question. "I don't know" I said keeping it short and simple, as all the memories from the night before came rushing back. I instantly became sick to my stomach pushing the food aside I ran to my bathroom. I threw up for what felt like forever, I didn't even have anything to throw up honestly. King came in and held me as I silently let tears fall from my eyes. As much as I tried not to cry it wasn't enough. "You gone be ok Marhi, we gone get through this I promise." he said kissing my forehead. Time passed and I had finally stopped crying I looked over to King and asked where Sincere was. "We had to take care of those bodies he was finishing up when I came back, but he should be here by now." He told me not exactly sure of Sincere's where abouts. I said ok and went and laid in my bed staring at nothing. "We going to see dad today, they scheduled a bail hearing for two days from now. We still trynna figure out some things, but I wanted to let you know so you could come." He stopped talking yet I never even looked at him. "He said he misses you he called us this morning, but you were sleep". He said not caring if I was paying attention or not. "Did you tell him ?" I asked, honestly I know everybody gone look at me different after this hell I look at me different for it, if I would've just asked for help, if I would've screamed sooner, all the things I could've done to prevent it. "No I was gone tell him today when we saw him, I was hoping you would come you know he gone wanna see you especially after that." I didn't say anything I honestly didn't even know if I wanted to face my dad. "What time y'all going to see him?" I questioned. "In like a half hour it's already 4:30." He said looking at me intensely, I said ok and got up to go in the bathroom, before I could reach it he pulled me into a hug telling me that he was sorry and that he loved me. "I love you too Kingston" I said back, he walked out not saying anything about me calling him by his real name.

I stepped into the shower, closing my eyes as the hot water hit every part of my body. I heard a knock on the door and then I heard Sincere's voice. "Are you coming with us?" He asked I said no and he left after replying with ok. It wasn't that I didn't want to see my dad I just don't wanna be judged or felt sorry for, I knew King and Sincere already did. I heard the door shut downstairs as I stepped out the shower. I brushed my teeth and put on underwear and an oversized T-shirt. I climbed into bed letting my thoughts consume me. I picked at the food King gave me and slipped into my thoughts. Thank God it was Saturday, I honestly didn't know if I was even ready to go back to school, I mean nobody knows but I still don't know if I can make it through even one day at that school ....

⛔️⛔️Sincere P.O.V.⛔️⛔️

After I told King that Marhi wasn't going he instantly got pissed but I didn't know why. I noticed in the house there was just this big ass dark cloud over all of us, I guess we all had our thoughts on the situation. The whole ride to the precinct was quiet, I guess we were both trying to figure out how to tell Uncle T. I knew I had let him down by letting this happen to his daughter and now I had to face whatever he threw my way. I parked the car and we hopped out going inside the precinct. The secretary greeted us and would not stop starring at us. King asked for his dad and we went and sat down still being watched by the lady behind the desk. We looked at each other and laughed, she scrunched up her face when she realized we were laughing at her.

Uncle T came out a little while later looking tired, he still had on the same clothes from two days ago. We dapped him up and sat back down. "Where Marhi at?" He asked looking around, I knew the conversation would come just didn't think it would be that soon. I looked at King and he looked at me like he wanted me to tell Uncle T. King didn't say a word and I sighed knowing he was bitching and wasn't gone say nothing. "Uhh she stayed at home she didn't really feel like coming out today." I said scratching the back of my head trying to figure out how to put my words. "She ain't wanna see me ?" Now he know damn well I ain't even say that. "Nah it's not even like that Unc, you know she love you man" I said still avoiding what had to be said while King sat there and watched, punk ass. "Then what's it like then Sincere?"  Uncle T looked at me waiting for an answer. "Last night..." I stopped and looked him in the eyes, I was gone be a man about it unlike this nigga beside me. "Last night she got raped." I could see the anger all over his face. "It was uncle Marcus and uncle Damien bitch ass sat there and watched" King spoke to his pops for the first time since we been here. We both looked at King but the difference was Uncle T looked like he was ready to take lives like they was his. "Y'all took out the trash?" He directed his question more so towards me, I honestly think he was mad at King cause he ain't open his mouth and speak up until the end of the conversation. "We took that trash out this morning" I told him not trying to be to obvious. "How y'all let that happen?" This time he glared at both of us. "We was locked out she took charge and went through the window, bout 15 or 20 minutes later we heard her scream and he was already finished with her" I said because once again King wouldn't open his mouth. Uncle T said nothing else about the situation which I found weird. That is until I saw him look around and send a punch to my jaw then to King's. These nut ass cops wasn't even paying attention, they never do when you need em' to. That shit honestly hurt, but I deserved it I'm surprised I ain't get one from Marhi. He finished our visit by telling us "My hearing was 9 a.m. sharp so be there or get another one, and bring my daughter." King and I walked past the receptionist pissed and she called to us . We glanced at her and she held out a piece of paper, King retrieved it and we left. We got in the car and he opened it, it was her number I chuckled cause I knew he would use it. We headed home in silence. "Thanks" he said through the silence that I was enjoying. "For?" I questioned. "Telling him, I ain't have the heart to tell him I let his baby girl get raped and we was posed to protect her.... I know that put a lot of pressure on you and I apologize for that." He said all this avoiding eye contact. "I forgive you and all but a heads up would've been nice too" I responded as we pulled into the drive way.

We got out without another word and headed in the house. I went straight to the fridge looking for something to cook. I pulled out the stuff to make spaghetti putting the meat in some hot water in the sink since it was frozen. I went and peeked into Marhi's room and she was still under the covers sleeping. I let her be for now but she was gone eat wether she liked it or not.

⛔️⛔️Amarhi P.O.V.⛔️⛔️

I heard the boys come in I wasn't a heavy sleeper so I woke up when I heard the door. I had been having nightmares since they left. I felt like I couldn't escape these feelings not even in my sleep. One of them peeped in my room and left, then the other one who I found out was King came in and sat on my bed. "How you feeling?" He asked the same question from earlier which I still had no answer for. I shrugged my shoulders and he sighed. "Dad knows, he wants you to be at his court hearing Monday. It's at nine so be ready by eight thirty." He said before rubbing my shoulder and walking out. I looked at the door he had just walked out of wondering if I would be going with them on Monday. I knew it wouldn't be a jury or not it was just a bail hearing. But I knew they had something on him so what if he didn't come home and I wasn't there to support him in his time of need.

My thoughts were interrupted by Sincere walking in with two bowls of something. It did smell good though, I hadn't been hungry all day but that smell made my stomach growl. He handed me the bowl and sat on the opposite side of my bed eating his food. I played with it taking a few bites it was actually good "Did you make this?" I asked breaking the silence. "Yea" he responded looking at me from the corner of his eyes. I was actually surprised I didn't know he could cook, shit I didn't know anything about him and he probably knew everything about me. He laughed at the face I made when he said yea, it made me chuckle a little. "You ok?" He asked for the first time, I shrugged my shoulders and said I didn't know, he nodded as if understanding. "Wanna talk about it?" He asked looking me dead in my face this time. "I don't know if I'm ready". I said looking away from his stare. "I think you should talk about it sooner rather than later, you know holding it in just gone keep you cooped up in this room you know what your BPD does to you..." I looked at him after he said that not sure of what to say.

That night he stayed in my room and we talked not about what happened the other night but we talked about random stuff. He told me about his mom it made me feel a little more comfortable with talking to him about what happened but I knew I wasn't ready to yet. We fell asleep the same way we did the night before; with me crying into his arms and him comforting me. I just couldn't escape the thoughts and they took me to that place of so much sadness.

>>>MONDAY<<<

I was woke up by Sincere at eight o'clock in the morning telling me to get ready he left out to go borrow clothes from King. By the time he come back my door was locked and I was back in bed he knocked on the door and I didn't answer. 20 minutes later him and King were both banging on my door, I honestly didn't want to leave my room. They eventually left and I felt like shit so I went back to sleep.

I woke up to someone busting into my room, breaking my lock. I hopped out of my bed and ran into the bathroom locking that door behind me. I frantically looked for a weapon and I couldn't find one until I remembered there was a gun in every room of this house. I lifted the top off the back of the toilet, grabbing the gun that was protected by a plastic bag. I quickly took it out pushing the bathroom window open, and hopping into the shower and quietly pulling the curtain closed. I was ready to shoot who ever busted through the bathroom door.

I guess that's the end of this chapter 🤷🏾‍♀️ welp I'll have another one up soon. 😘