You Get What You Deserve E.D

Chapter 5

⚠️ SUICIDAL AND SELF HARM BEHAVIOR WARNING ⚠️ If you get triggered, don't read.

HUNTER

i walked back to my room, tears falling madly. "omg Hunter! what happened?" Jamie asks, worried. he wraps his arms around me, making me feel safe. "she didn't make it." is all i said. those 4 words broke me. me and jamie stay there for 15 minutes just crying to each other. "w-we should go.." i mumble, standing up. "yeah." jamie agreed, quietly. we get up and walk down the corridor. we just go to Jamie's car and drive to my house. "i can come in if you want." jamie offers. "it's okay. i just want to be alone." i sigh. "i understand." he smiles. he gives me a hug then i walk out and go to my room. i just fall onto my bed and cry. i hate keeping all my feelings in. i just want to let it out. I want to cry as much I want, then when I'm finished, never cry for the same reason again.

JAMIE

"it's okay. i just want to be alone." she sighs. i understand where's she's coming from. i respect her decision and wait for her to go into her house before driving off. i do know that she's been hanging around with Ethan and Grayson. she doesn't realise this but i think she can trust them. knowing Hunter for 4 years is tough, but i can see right through her. she needs them. i drive to their house, ive been friends with them for a while i just don't talk to them that often. i get out of my car after pulling up to the big house. i walk up the steps and knock on the door.

ETHAN

"GRAY ANSWER THE DOOR!" i yell. "UGHH OKAY!" he yells back. i hear him open the door and have a slight conversation with the person there. about 5 minutes pass and he comes up stairs, tears running down his face. i quickly get up and go to him. "Grayson! what happened? why are you crying?" i ask him, confused. "Hunter.," he says. "WHAT HAPPENED?" i whisper yell. "her mum, d-didn't make it." he sighs. "oh my god. she's probably broken, she's got no one."i whisper. "no shit sherlock." grayson says. i sadly sit down. "i'm going to talk to her." i say. "okay.. tell me what happens when you get back."

HUNTER

i'm sick of this. really. i have no friends except Ethan Grayson and Jamie. everyone at school hates me. ugh. i go to my bathroom and find my old best friend. "long time no see." i smile at my razor. i used to slit in middle school. every night i would do 7slits in each wrist. i turn on the tap in the sink so my blood wouldn't stain it. i roll up my shirt and put the razor to it. "one for jamie, you're my best friend and i love you. don't forget me. you made me laugh when I didn't want to smile. you helped me through everything. when i was an ugly human being, you saw a beautiful soul. i will always love you." tears dropped onto my skin as i sliced through it. "one for my mum, i did love you. but the way you treated me was unforgettable. was i not good enough? we're my grades too low? was my outfit too scruffy? was i too innocent? what? i will not forget you because i love you but i will always have a little hate for you." and again, i sliced deeper. "one for my dad, you broke me. you hurt me in ways people couldn't think off. the bruises show how weak i came upon you. i don't know why you did it. was i not good enough? you could have asked me to be prettier if you thought i was ugly, you could have asked me to be nice if you thought i was mean. you could have told me. It's not the bruises on the body that hurt, it's the wounds of the heart and the scars on the mind. i will love you forever but my hatred for you attacks my heart. i don't think i can forgive you." and with that, i slice so deep that i scream in pain. my arm is full of a burning feeling, but soon it turns into relief. i carry on slicing until my arm is full of blood. the water stains red. i just sit in the bathroom floor crying. why me?

ETHAN

i finally arrive at Hunters house after lots of fucking traffic. i knock on the door, but no answer. "HUNTER I KNOW YOUR THERE OPEN UP!" i yell. no response. i just open the door and to my surprise, it's unlocked. i run up to a room with a black door, i assume its hers. i open it and no ones there. i sigh then run to the bathroom, i hear sobs. i run to the handle and try to open it but it's locked. "OPEN UP!" i yell. i get fed up. as quick as a flash, the door is knocked down. i see Hunter on the floor with blood dripping from her arm. "HUNTER!" i yell. i sit down next to her and grab her wrist. "w-why?" i stutter. her tears still falling, she makes eye contact with me. "because, i'm broken Ethan. i hate that i'm still hoping, i hate that i don't know what to feel anymore. it sucks feeling like you're not good enough. i'm tired of fighting Ethan! for once, i want to be fought for. Im hurt, but showing a smile is better then saying what's killing you. i finally said, enough is enough. i failed in being happy, Ethan." she just looks at me with no emotion. my heart skipped a beat. we just stare at the floor. "but you only fail when you stop trying."

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