YTF (Tonight I Know)

Chapter 4

(A/N): YAY! Chapter 4! Enjoy. I'll talk more at the end.

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Recap:

“Because I’m in love with you. I want to help you. I don’t care that you went through all that before. I want to be the one to help you overcome it. If you can’t be with me because you don’t feel the same way as I do you, then that’s different I just need to hear how you feel, and then we’ll work out all the hard stuff.” He said this all so sincerely and intensely, that I felt he meant it. To the core of me I knew I needed him like he said he did. Although I was happy being friends with all these guys, I needed someone for me, just me. 

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“I don’t know Chester,” I said looking down at my lap. “I haven’t allowed myself to feel anything. I need time…”

         “Great, we’ll go on a date!” Oh God, the last time I was on a date was in high school… Seriously, since high school. What do I do now? I felt selfish if I accepted the date offer, but I’d also feel selfish if I declined it. I made up my mind; I’ll give the date a try. So I hesitantly put my hand on the side of Chester’s face.

         “I honestly feel a lot right now, but I don’t think it would be fair of me if I declined a date. I just need to warn you though; I wasn’t lying when I said I’m not whole. I’m not good enough for you Chester, you just need to realize that.” I was looking intently into his eyes; they were so beautiful and hopeful that I could cry.

         “Don’t ever say that. I was nervous because I knew I wasn’t good enough for you. You’re the most beautiful, kind, talented girl I’ve ever met. I’ve never felt so strongly before.” He began to tear up a little and I felt so special in that moment that I leaned in really slowly. He began to lean in to, and our lips finally touched. It was amazing to be this close to him. My lips moved in ways unfamiliar to me. Ways that made me feel empowered and connected. It ended to quickly when we came up for air.

         “Please,” he whispered against my lips. “Give me a chance to make you happy.” I nodded my head yes, not trusting my voice. He smiled brilliantly and pulled me in for a hug. Even up to this point, I couldn’t believe that this guy was in love with me. I still didn’t think I deserved him, but needed to give it a try at least. After a couple minutes of just sitting there silently in his arms, I spoke up.

         “Do you really need help with your video?” I asked giggling a little. He looked down at me with an amused expression on his face.

         “Well, yeah, but it’s not a song, it’s a sketch. Is that okay?” he asked.

         “That’s totally fine.”

         “We should go back. They’re probably wondering where we went.” And with that we walked back to the elevator and back to the apartment.

         The whole night Chester and I sat talking about nothing and everything all at once. We watched a movie with the guys, (“Watchmen”, Kevin’s decision.)  I really wasn’t concentrating on the movie though, I was thinking about what Chester said. Every time I looked over at him he would be staring at me with an intent expression. It wasn’t in a creepy way though it was actually incredibly sweet. The way he looked at me, made me feel things I haven’t felt in a long time. At 2am the movie ended and we all decided to call it a night. I thanked Victor again for the necklace and said my goodnights to the rest of the guys.

         “Hey, would you walk me to my car?” Chester asked as Ryan, Dom and I were about to go into the elevator.

         “Yeah, sure,” I said with a quick “I’ll be right up” to the guys.

         He held my hand all the way to his car, and then he grabbed me and kissed me. This time was different; it was more intense and urgent. My hair knotted in his hair while his hand was on my waist. He then rested his forehead against mine.

         “I love you,” he breathed with another peck. “I’ll pick you up tomorrow at seven.”

         “Ok, Chester. Goodnight,” I said moving out of his hold. I liked that he didn’t expect to say I love you back. It made me feel he could wait for me. With one last smile I left him without looking back. When I made it back to the apartment Dom was sitting up waiting for me.

         “Jill, is everything okay?” he asked looking slightly concerned.

         “Yeah everything’s fine.” I honestly just wanted to go to sleep.

         “Why’d you walk Chester out?”

         “Um…he wanted to talk to me. Listen Dom, I’m going to turn in. We’ll talk in the morning, okay?”

         “Okay, but if there’s ever anything wrong, no matter what, come talk to me. I won’t judge you or anything, but you know that,” he said seriously.

         “I do, Dominic. Thank you, Goodnight.” And with that I went to my new bedroom. I put in sheets on the bed and fell asleep hearing Chester’s sweet voice in my head and memorizing our earlier conversations.

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(A/N): I know, don't kill me. It's short, but no cliffhanger this time!

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