Stay Away From My Friends (sequel to bulletproof love)

chapter 12

Megan's POV

I've been told that the doctors want me to stay in hospital for a couple of days to keep an eye on me, basically I'm on suicide watch, fucking great. I'm not a child, I can look after myself but obviously they don't think so. Ever since my dad had gotten here he hasn't left my side once, his facial expression is full of hurt and sadness because of what I did. Everyone else, including my mum had left the room to let me and my dad talk alone for awhile.

"I cancelled tour to come and see you" My dad said.

"What?!" I asked shocked, "why did you do that?" I asked. I didn't want him cancelling a tour just for me, he needs to think about his fans. He's shouldn't be doing that.

"Because my little girl tried to end her life" He stated bluntly. I quietened after that, I guess I deserved that.

"I am sorry dad" I bowed my head in shame, "I just couldn't handle everything and with you being away I just felt alone but I guess I didn't realise how selfish it was of me to do that" I explained sadly. It's true. I never thought about my parents feelings, I thought they wouldn't care but I guess I was wrong, they care a lot from what I've seen today and the guys. I'm glad I have them back, I feel like everything could be okay from now on, but I shouldn't speak too soon.

My dad sat on the bed next to me and took my hands in his.

"I just don't understand why you didn't talk to anyone about it, you have your mother and brother, they would've listened to you!" He said. I knew he was right, I just didn't think.

"I know.. I'm sorry" I said sadly, "does Jacob know about me?" I asked curiously, I didn't want my brother to think his sister is some suicidal freak.

"Not yet, but he knows something's up because we told him we won't be home all day, he does deserve to know though" He said to me.

"I know he does but I don't want him to think badly of me, I'm suppose to be the brave older sister but I'm not.." I explained.

"You're stronger than you think sweetie, it was just a moment of weakness" He said with a shrug. I knew he was completely serious though.

"I'm not dad, I'm pathetic. I chose the easy way out instead of dealing with my problems" I sighed. He looked at me sadly, I hate making him feel like this but it was true and he knew it.

"Sweetie, don't think about it now, you're alive and that's all that matters, okay?" He said looking at me seriously. I nodded my head and hugged my dad tightly, I'm so lucky to have him.

"I love you dad" I mumbled into his chest.

"I love you too" He said and I could hear the smile in his voice. This was the first proper father, daughter moment me and my dad have had in a long time. Then there was a light knock on the door.

"Come in!" My dad shouted. The door opened and 3 faces appeared. Uncle Mike, Vic and Tony walked in and smiled at me.

"How are you munchkin?" Uncle Mike asked as he sat next to me. He handed me a cuddly toy that he had in his hand. I smiled gratefully at the gift and took it from him.

"I'm okay, been better but I'm okay" I replied to his question. He nodded understandingly.

"You look well" Uncle Tony said. I smiled at him, he's not good at small talk.

"Thanks Uncle Tone" I said. Then my dad stood up off the bed.

"I'm going see your mother" My dad announced.

"Okay, when you come back in, can you get me a glass of water?" I asked.

"Of course sweetie" He replied. He kissed my head then left the room. Once he was gone all three of them just looked at me with sad looks.

"Okay, please don't look at me with sympathy, I've had enough of that!" I said, not rudely but they understood.

"Sorry, just why did you do it?" Uncle Vic asked carefully. I then explained everything to them, and I mean everything, school, self harm and just not wanting to be here anymore. But I said that I felt better now I have the guys back and the talk with my dad made me feel happier with everything.

"I just glad you're alive munchkin" Mike said with a small smile, "if I lost you, I don't know what I'd do" He said sadly.

"But you didn't lose me and that's all that matters, right?" I asked. They all nodded with smiles and Uncle Mike sat next to me, like my dad did and hugged me.

"Please don't do this again" Uncle Mike said quietly to me as he pulled away from the hug.

"I promise" I said and held my pinky out, it's kind of my thing. He chuckled and hooked his pinky with mine.

"At least your still your normal self" He commented. I laughed and so did the others.

"She'll never changed!" Uncle Vic said.

"That's true!" Uncle Mike said. I just shook my head with a laugh.

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Next day, my parents had gone home for a while to see my brother and explain everything to him because I told them that I couldn't do it myself, I would probably cry in front of him. My uncles had gone home to sort stuff out about a new tour or something since they cancelled this one and Finn was here with me to keep me company.

"So, you want to watch a movie since you have this little TV?" He asked. I had free movies on my little TV until I leave. I nodded my head with a smile. I like how natural me and Finn are acting around each other again, it's like nothing had ever happened.

He walked over to the TV and grabbed the remote that was siting next to it then came and sat back next to me. We ended up picking The Hangover because it's a good movie and I could watch it over and over again. He wrapped an arm around me and I cuddled up into his side like it's completely natural.

"I've missed this" I mumbled but loud enough for him to hear.

"So have I but I'm glad I- I mean we have you back again" He smiled shyly as he corrected himself. I looked at him and it seemed like he wanted to say something.

"You okay?" I asked. He nodded with a smile.

"Yeah, just thinking" He said.

"About what?" I asked curiously.

"It doesn't matter" He shook his head. I furrowed my eyebrows as he sighed.

"Tell me Finn, I'm your bestfriend and you can tell me anything!" I said. He never keeps things from me.

"This is something I can't tell you!" He said. I looked at him in confusion.

"What do you mean?" I asked puzzled. He sighed and it looked he was having a full on debate with himself. He turned to face and looked at me shyly.

"I never thought I would actually tell you but I guess I finally should tell you the truth" He said. I was totally confused right now, "Megan, before I tell you this, I need to know that this won't change our friendship?" He asked scared. What's this all about?

"Nothing will change us Finn!" I said reassuringly. He nodded and took a deep breath.

"I like you Megan" He said.

"I like you too Finn" I replied, but why is he scared to tell me that?

"No, you don't understand, I like you more than a friend" He explained. Then it clicked in my mind. Finn likes me? I just looked at him in complete shock with my mouth making an "o" shape. I wasn't expecting that.

"You l-like me?" I asked even though he and I know that I knew the answer.

"Yes" He sighed. I didn't know what to say. I'd never thought of Finn in that way, ever. He's always been my bestfriend and nothing else.

"I don't know what to say Finn" I said honestly. I couldn't say that I like him back because I don't, I couldn't do that to him. He looked completely rejected and embarrassed.

"I-I need to go!" He then announced and quickly left before I could say anything else, what just happened?