Fighting Against Lilac Love (FALL)

chapter eighteen- Cheated

You think I need you, honey I wanted you. But you see, thats the past term. Which means I dont see a future me wanting you anymore_ Christelle

(Hehe Sean at the top :0)

Christelle's POV

That unfortunate night seemed a blur of unforgettable yet forgettable events in which, sadly, I can't recall. I sighed, rubbing my eyes as I walked in the hall of students. The bell rang signalling first session.

I sighed, taking my time in walking to class. But a peculiar noise sounded by the empty library on my right. I frowned, going inside. I heard it again. A gasp.

Without hesitating I followed the hushed voice, leading to a secluded spot. The librarians room was open, I examined the door, before pushing the door wide open.

Never in my wildest dreams have I expected seeing what I'm seeing now.

A blonde against the wall, her naked front pressed against the cool brick wall."Jason! Yes, please dont stop!" She groaned.

My blood ran cold.

He didnt seem to notice me as he continued ramming himself into her. Hes muscles taut and strained.

"Almost there, baby," he hissed through clenched teeth.

My breathing faltered.  Just for a moment I lost my cool, but than I remembered who I was and got my shit together.

I leaned against the doorway finally speaking up.

"Honey, dont fake it. Me and you both know how small hes dick is."

Both of them froze, and for a second I wanted to laugh at the situation I was in.

Jason turned hes head back, hes eyes locking onto my emotionless ones. "C-Christelle...." He stuttered.

Pulling away from a frozen blonde and zipping himself up. I smiled brightly at him, eye lashes fluttering at him. "Yes, babe,"

He swallowed thickly as the blonde hurriedly got dressed and practically ran out of the room.

Leaving me and little jackass over here.

Hes mouth opened and closed, sweating profusely. I rolled my eyes at how pathetic he was.

"I can explain, Chris." He mumbled.

I stared at him for a full five seconds. Before I finally said two words that could put Antarctica to shame at how less cold it can be compared to my words.

"Okay, explain,"

He was stunned in shock at having him explain himself. He was flabbergasted to say the least.

"Well...you see...uhm...you weren't getting physical and I mean I'm a man babe, I need shit to make me feel sane....well she was there...." He broke off as he saw how dark my eyes was getting.

" So you fucked everything desperate enough to actually want to fuck you, while dating me because you didnt have the balls to man up to me...oh babe dont be looking for excuses. But what gets to me, Jason, is that you have the audacity to say I'm fucking cheating on you while you're banging a girl in the fucking librarians room!!

How insane can you fucking be? You know....I understand why your ex cheated on you...I mean if you were whoring around like a female slut what the fuck should she do at how ungrateful you are. So you know, payback is gonna be a bitch when karma comes to castrate your tiny ass balls...if you have any that is. I'm so glad I didnt give you any. I dont think I would have been satisfied."

To be honest, I never thought 'Seeing red' was a true phrase, but oh my, miss Kelly was right. I was seeing blood red, I was so fucking pissed off that I wanted to kill. I spotted a bat by the side of a cupboard, and I grabbed it, turning to Jason's pale face. "You know what you deserve, Jason?" I asked rhetorically.

I smirked a bitter smile, "A good ass whooping lesson. And I'm more than happy to teach you."

I swung the bat and hit him on hes private area. He doubled over, howling in agony. I dropped the bat, kicking him over and over again until a pair of strong arms hauled me away.

I growled, kicking and struggling until a voice whispered in my ear.

"Why do you always fight me, bella," Seans warmth flooded my body, calming my anger slightly. "Let me go!" I seethed, trying to elbow my way out of hes human arm cage.

By now, Jason was on the floor whimpering like a dying dog. He deserves way more for ever having to mess with me.

Sean's hot breath fluttered my hair. "I think he had enough,love. Let it go. Calm down. Deep breaths...I've got you." He soothed.

My breathing faltered, anger vanishing...fading....replaced by a longing so intense...a revelation so bright, it clicked.

Why is it so hard to love me?

I sagged in hes hold, eyes tearing at my breaking thought and an already broken heart that has been disappointed and let down.

"Let me go..." I whispered again, defeated.

He hesitated but, almost reluctantly, he let me go. I pushed past him, unable to meet hes intense stare as I trudged out of the library.

My mind made, I walked out of school, too tired of all the bullshit and all the lies.

I walked and walked, I didnt know where I was going....but tell me who does know where they're going? Who knows their destination?

So thats what I did, I let my feet carry me to wherever they thought I needed to go, and it didnt matter anymore where I was going because I needed to walk this life by myself.

At the end. I ended up at our old neighborhood park. Rusted swing, broken see saws and a stable jungle gym. Trees were like huge, since I was a kid I used to play here with Danny.

When ever we got tired of mom and dad always talking about business and going on meetings and stuff, we used to come here.

The birds tweeted, wind blowing gently as I sat and stared up at the clear blue sky. I sighed, blinking back tears at what happened during the past days.

Some times I just want to shout 'I'm only fucking human!' So that the message can be clear.

But I can't.

Why?

Because I'm not weak.

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