Fighting Against Lilac Love (FALL)

chapter sixteen- Confessions

This is my confession_ Usher

Sean's POV (part two)

After her crying, which took quite a long time, she just laid on my chest her arms wrapped around me. I stroked her back, tryna figure out my thoughts and get my fucked up life back in order.

I cooed to her, hands brushing the hair out of her face gently. I hummed a song to soothe the tension in her shoulders. All at once she relaxed, her breathing deepening.

I looked down at her peaceful sleeping face. I felt my heart melting. What is this woman doing to me....

I sighed, her lashes brushing her cheeks, red lips parted, she was innocence...despite her fire soul.

She was innocent.

Unlike me, spoilt for any one...I wasnt good enough... Not good enough for her that is.

I looked up to the ceiling, the party still booming outside. "Have you ever wondered why we're living the life we're living, Bella?" I asked her sleeping form.

Silence.

"Yeah...me too....you know, mom and dad wasnt always there for me...they just was rarely at home. I miss them...miss seeing their faces in the mornings, miss hearing their little debates. Miss their cooking... Miss their love." I murmured softly, vulnerably, my voice cracking.

I inhaled deeply, swallowing emotions where they fucking belonged. Deep in my heart. Buried and hidden.

"And than...she came along. We were kids...I dont think you even know her, Bella, but I know you would hate her," I chuckled to myself.

"I was going through a dark patch in my life, to me she was the light...the way out. And she meant everything for me. I would shower her with gifts, compliment her always so she wouldn't feel neglected, even when she flirted with boys, I would ask her and she would say " friends"...I trusted her. I didnt question, thats how deeply I thought I fell in love with her. And than...." I sighed, shaking my head and looking down at Christelle.

"You. You, Bella, are truelly something else...I'm afraid of falling again...and with you... I can't help myself...I thought I was lusting. But you...break my defences, you fuck my heart. And I'm fucking scared..." I whispered, kissing her forehead.

Her eyebrows pulled together, her breathing turning quicker. "No...no...you broke me once...not again...no...can't.." She mumbled, kicking. I frowned, pulling her closer. "Shhhh..." I soothed rubbing her back until she calmed. Her kicking stopped.

I grimaced to myself... Who the fuck broke her so bad for her to be having nightmares of it ...

Her words rung in my head..

You broke me once, but not again.

My heart clenched...who broke you, my Bella?

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Hi, I know its been long but hey, its worth while. No I didnt forget, I plan on finishing this book. Just stick around, coz there's plenty more where that came from. Its a short chapter but still.. (;

Love,
Ab kitty∆