Endless loop of Melancholy

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Perturbation by my side;
Errors between my social life.
I learnt from my mistakes.
Never be the same again.
My life is like a hurricane of destruction.

It hurts so bad,
That the voices inside my head tells me to perpetrate suicide.

As you have guess by now,
That I'm suffering from depression my entire life.

Why eat?
Why sleep?

That's why it hits me hard when someone is worried or care about me.
It's like a knife stabbed behind my back.
I want myself back.
But I can't.
I'm already blind by the truth.
Because the truth has been told
That I'm never be the same again.

I'm worthless and spineless.
I already told you that I suffer from anxiety,
Didn't I?

See, I'm boring and not tenacious enough.
I already experience to have best friends.
But they just left me.
Sad, isn't it?
We already know that not every people we encounter in our life always stay.
They always leave me.
Always...

Let me tell you about our little secret.
Don't be attach to someone.
Don't trust anyone.
Because you'll end up being hurt
Every single time.

-Sorrowful_Stephanie

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