E A T || BTS x Y.M

deux

I don't support eating disorders but this book will have eating disorders. If you aren't comfortable with that, don't read this book.

*BTS are all in the same grade and are the same age*
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Breathing wasn't always hard for Min Yoongi.

Yoongi placed the last box of his belongings on his new bed. His lungs were practically burning from exertion, even though all he carried in was a medium sized cardboard box.

He ripped open the top of the box and grabbed out his manga and producing equipment. For the next hour Yoongi put all of his belongings away.

Yoongi sighed after laying down on his comfortable and soft bed. He was anxious for tomorrow, the first day of college.

The feeling of panic bubbling inside of him was terrifying. Yoongi you can't always ignore everyone. You have to meet your new roommate-

The door opened with a loud bang that made Yoongi jump up off of his bed in fright.

"Hyung, I'm so excited, maybe my roommate's here!" Yoongi heard a low voice talking and then a soft voice responding.

"TaeTae can we just hurry this up?" The two new figures came into the dorm room before seeing Yoongi awkwardly standing there after just exiting his room.

"You must be my new roommate! I'm so excited!" 'Taetae' yelled before going over to Yoongi. Yoongi could feel his lungs begging for air he couldn't breathe. Don't get too close. He'll see your disgusting body-

"You like manga too? That's, like, so cool! Honestly Kaneki from Tokyo Ghoul is my daddy." Yoongi froze before slowly nodding his head. His new roommate was definitely an outgoing person. Yoongi could already feel a headache forming.

"Tae, stop attacking your new roommate. Anyways," another man came into Yoongi's view and walked over to where his friend was. "I'm Jimin and this is Taehyung. I'm guessing you'll be Tae's new roommate?" Yoongi couldn't help but stare. There's no doubt that these men were very attractive. You'll never be like them.

Jimin was surprised, noting how short and skinny this man was - from his sunken in cheeks and bony fingers, he wondered if he would be able to see his ribs. It was also obvious that the man had self esteem issues based on the way he carried himself; hunched shoulders and curling in on himself, he could practically see the disgust in his eyes when he looked down at his stomach. Jimin had to forcefully stop himself from cuddling him.

"Yeah, I'm Min Yoongi but you can just call me Yoongi. It's nice to meet you." Yoongi replied shyly. He curled up into himself without even realizing.

"I have to go now, Tae. I'm already going to be late for work. Anyways, it was great meeting you, Yoongi. I'm sure that we'll see each other soon." And then Jimin was out the door.

...

Taehyung was a really exciting and outgoing person and Yoongi was already starting to get use to him. It's been two days since they've meet each other and Yoongi already feels somewhat attached to Tae.

Yoongi has been anxious since the morning about tomorrow; the first day of college. He's been picking out outfits that he should wear but they don't look good on him. Fat thighs, huge stomach, disgusting, disgusting, disgusting, disgust-

"-ongi! Yoongi! YOONGI!" Yoongi quickly looked over at Tae with a scared expression.

"Yeah?" Yoongi whispered, while moving his view over to his feet. Tae probably thinks that he's a freak.

"I was just asking about your schedule. What's your first class?" Taehyung asked, secretly hoping they shared some classes together because, he's working to get the same degree as Yoongi.

"I have advanced history at 9." Yoongi replies looking at Taehyung with a small gummy smile.

'Cute' Taehyung thought before blushing. But he was slightly disappointed because he has chemistry but knows Jungkook and Jimin have advanced history at 9.

"I have chemistry with my friend Seokjin, but that's okay, we can have lunch together and maybe I'll introduce you to my friends?" Although Yoongi didn't want to meet new people unless he had to, he had a weird urge to meet Tae's friends so he agreed with a small smile. Maybe Yoongi could get more friends.

...

Sometimes Yoongi has really good days and really bad days. Yesterday was a great day. Yoongi didn't feel as disgusted with himself and he was actually excited to meet new people. But, Yoongi can already tell that today will be a bad day. He woke up at around 7 - even though his classes started at 9 - and had a major headache. One of the most resent effects of not eating was random headaches and of course with Yoongi's luck he had one on the first day of college. Then, when he left for classes - thirty minutes early - he had to go back to his dorm after he realized he left his laptop there. He showed up right as the professor walked in.

Now after his first two classes it's lunch. Yoongi remembers promising Taehyung he would eat with his friends and unlike yesterday, Yoongi was nervous and slightly scared. Meeting new people had always been hard for him.

Taehyung sees Yoongi and sneaks up on him before he wrapped his arm around Yoongi's shoulders and laughed - really loudly Yoongi might add - in his ear. "Let's go! I can't wait to show you my friends." Taehyung said before dragging Yoongi over to a table with five other people.

While Yoongi was dreading the introduction of him to Tae's friends, all Taehyung could think about was how frail Yoongi's bones felt and how he could easily snap them. Taehyung choked down a sob before focusing on the temperature of Yoongi's body. He was colder than ice.