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okayyyyy hello everyone!
wow, it's finally finished. it's hard to believe, as i first wrote this about two years ago(?)...yeah, that seems accurate.
anyways, this end note is going to be pretty chill, as i'm just going to express my thanks, explain the storyline a bit, and finally i'll mention why i wrote this.
umm...hopefully i answer all your questions. if i don't, just leave a comment and i'll answer it!
1. storyline/past
i know this book is all over the place (which is one reason why i don't really like it).
but basically, when yoongi was a kid, he developed an eating disorder. the comments of kids at school plus the demons in his mind helped to fuel his eating disorder.
then, as stress and work kept piling on, his parents became very abusive. his father was physically abusive while his mother was emotionally abusive (although sometimes she would also inflict some physical abuse.) i didn't really go into depth, in the intro, to the parents abuse because i wanted to focus mostly on yoongi's eating disorder.
when high school was finished, yoongi immediately left his home-town. then, at college in seoul, he meets bts.
now, ill go into each members past.
jimin: i really didn't talk a lot about jimin's past, but it was very dark. his father left him and his mother at an early age, and then when he got older, his mother got very sick. as we can see in one chapter, jimin sold his body to get money so he could buy medicine for his mom. he did this at a very young age. i never talked about how he got out of that situation. this part is up to your imagination!
taehyung: taehyung's parents were very addicted to drugs. they eventually sold him off to namjoon's guardian so they could get money to buy more drugs. this event occurred when taehyung was at a very young age. he then spent his life growing up and falling in love with namjoon. although, he always knew deep down that his heart was yearning for more—in this case, the rest of bts.
jungkook: jungkook grew up in a very poor neighborhood in busan. his mom died during birth, and out of grief, jungkook's father began to abuse him. this made jungkook very depressed and suicidal. again, use your imagination to come up with a way on how he escaped.
namjoon: namjoon's parents died in an accident and he was saved by this 'dad' person. this man purposely saves kids and either raises them or gives them to homes that will love and care for them. anyways, eventually that man brings taehyung home. throughout namjoon's adolescences, he grew to love taehyung.
seokjin: okay, so seokjin's storyline is a bit heavy. he grew up with parents that didn't really care for him or pay attention to him. they had money, but no happiness. eventually, he mets an older man who he eventually gets into a relationship with. this man turns out to be abusive physically, emotionally, and sexually. finally, after seokjin receives a very life-threatening injury, he decides to leave the other man. after the multiple trials, the man is put into prison and seokjin is seemingly free. except, he isn't. seokjin receives nightmares constantly and at the end of the experience, he finally realizes how messed up his family is. they blamed him for the abusive relationship. he never does find true happiness till he meets bts in seoul. seokjin is asexual, as his prior relationship made him hate everything about sex. (i never actually went into detail about this...but yea)
hoseok: this one was definitely...weird? idk i just wanted mafia to be involved. anyways, hoseok's dad was involved with the mafia. when he betrayed them, they showed up at his house and killed him and his wife. they missed his child; hoseok. after the whole ordeal, hoseok was basically mentally scarred. he had very bad ptsd. hoseok then stayed with his aunt and went to therapy daily. when he moves to seoul, he thinks he's free, but then the mafia track him down and are back for more revenge (even though hoseok himself was innocent.) they force him to take drugs and make it look like an overdose. thankfully, it doesn't work and hoseok lives...yay! then, the police are able to investigate and track down the people who harmed hoseok. they were put into prison.
the storyline is just...yoongi has an eating disorder and bts help him overcome it...yeah!
(i wanted to point out at the end of the latest chapter, at the very last sentence when yoongi says he's wondering about what will be for breakfast the next day, i wrote that specifically to show that he has fully developed a love for eating and now enjoys it—he even looks forward to it. i just wanted to point this out .//. )
2. why i wrote this
during the time i wrote this, i was suffering with my body image a lot. this book was supposed to be just about eating disorders, but obviously, it talked about much more serious issues. (even darker ones, i would say.) while continuing to write this story, i thought it would help me love myself and release my stress/self-hatred.
3. thank you!
finally, thank you to everyone who has finished this story. it was...a long ride, honestly. a lot happened. but, i'm so very thankful to all my readers. your comments and votes always continue to make my day.
it's a shit story, i'm fully admitting that, but i have still put a lot of effort into this story.
i had got a few hate comments. they called this story disgusting and said it was 'too much.' i really didn't mean to offend anyone while writing this; it was just a book to help me cope with life. but, nonetheless, all your guys' positive comments and many votes helped me 'cope' with these hate comments. thank you all so much!
anyways, please anticipate my new stories. and continue to read the ones i have published. my interest in writing has come back, so don't be surprised if i published new books soon.
everyone, again, thank you so much!
ill leave with a quote:
"One day I woke up to realize, that I can't touch yesterday so why was I letting it touch me?"
it first starts with loving and accepting yourself.
