Journal of *Her* Life

Chapter 6

June 12.

Hey guys sorry I have had a rough few weeks . I honestly DO feel like no one really cares beside my friend Makayla and Sabrina . Anyone else has left me . Now Nathan.... Wow . Nathan and I fought a week or two ago .. And I was pretty sure he knew that we broke up. Guess not ! He still messages me every morning saying ,"good morning beautiful" and I feel loved when he still does it . And then he said ," I know you think I don't love you anymore , but know I will always love you." And it made me feel good . And I actually realized I love him.... But there is someone else in the picture . This old friend Bella , we met in 3rd grade and we are like Bestfriends now . Well I like her . And I honestly don't know her feelings towards me . I know she says ," I really care about you" but idk if she says that in a ' I have a serious crush on you' or a. ' sister ' way. I just wish she would text me and say I care about you as a ____. Ugh. Oh to clear this up ... She is bisexual. Okay enough with her for now . Makayla and Sabrina .. I know you are reading this , stop fighting . I know you both dated but last night I felt pressured . I just feel like you will make me chose between you both . You both are SO close to me . I would probably died if you guys left me . But I know you don't want to me chose . Ugh. I hate how my two most important people in my life hate eachother so much . Off topic but just so you both know , every time I tell my mom I am talking to you she says," I wanna know their drama" . She knows I get soo upset to see you both hating eachother . I love you both soooo much it hurts sometimes . ❤

May the odds be ever in your favor GOOOOODBYE!

-mackenzie .