Why?

Chapter 6. Fate

Overwhelmed, I begin to think about what I should do. If I go to see her there's no reason why she would remember who I am. She hasn't seen me since I was two years old. At least that's what dad told me. He also wrote in the letter that she left town to pursue her acting career. So I wonder why she's back in town. How long has she been here? Does she know that dad is dead? Why didn't she want me? I started to feel all this hurt towards my so called "mother." I need to hear it from her mouth that she doesn't care about me. I can feel the anger building up inside. Without any hesitation I walked out my house while ignoring everyone. I hopped into my car and drove down to the coffee shop.

I quickly entered the shop and spotted Alex. She was sitting at the same table I left her at. I looked around and I didn't see the woman in the picture. I was already fired up and Alex was about to feel my wrath. I stormed over to Alex and as if she felt like her life was in danger she quickly got up.

"Jordan, she's here. I swear." She said nervously.

"Show me, now." I raised my voice at her.

Alex hesitated to say anything but I noticed that she was starring right past me. I turned around because I suddenly felt a present behind me.

"It...it's you." I said with a stutter.

I felt so puzzled that words were hard to come up with.

It was Autumn wearing a apron with the coffee shop logo on it. She had a small notebook with a pen in her hand.

"Hey Jordan." She said with a smile.

"Hey, Autumn. I didn't realize that when you said you were on your way to work that you meant here." I said finally relieved that I can actually say words to her.

I looked back at Alex and she seemed like she was uncomfortable. I started to feel more confident because I could tell that Alex was getting jealous of the way Autumn was looking at me.

"Yeah, I thought you knew because I saw you watching me walk into the building." She said with a smirk.

I laughed "Unfortunately, I wasn't paying attention to where you was going. My apologies. You're very beautiful so I can't help but to stare at a work of art." I said confidently.

Autumn blushed and looked shocked by the compliments I gave her. Alex was still standing there not interrupting which is out of character for her.

"Thanks. I didn't expect you to say that." She said while smiling really wide.

"You must be a descendant of the sun god, Apollo, because you smile brightens up my day." I said.

"Why are you being so sweet? Did you come back here just to compliment me?" She asked as joke.

"Sadly, no. I'm here-

"With me. We're on a date." Alex interrupted me. "So can you leave us." She said while taking a seat.

"NO." I said furious.

"I didn't realize. I have to get back to work anyway." Autumn said as she walked away.

"Bring back some tea for my baby." Alex said with a smirk on her face.

"What the hell is wrong with you?" I asked while sitting down. "I'm not your baby and you know this."

"What the hell is wrong with you? Just flirting with her in my face when I'm here doing you a favor. I will not be ignored by you." She said.

"If you can't take your own medicine then don't dish it out." I said.

She had nothing to say after that.

"I truly don't understand people who mistreat their significant other but then want them back when they're the ones who destroyed the relationship. I've put up with your shit for too long. Yes, you did things for me and yes you're my first but that doesn't mean anything. The value dropped when you decided that I wasn't worth holding onto. You wrecked the trust I had for you and then acted like the victim. I even believed that you were. How dumb am I? I asked while laughing. "But I see now who you really are." I said while standing up. "You're full of shit and you've wasted my time here.

Just as I was about to walk away someone tapped my shoulder.

"Ma'am, I'm sorry but other customers are complaining about your voice level. I'm going to have to ask you to leave." A lady said.

Alex had a smirk on her face.

"I was just leaving." I said while turning around.

If I had that tea Alex asked for, I'm sure I would have dropped it. It's her. She looks like me but her eyes were amber.

"Mom." That was the only word I could manage to get out my mouth.

"Excuse me?" She said. "Do I know you?"

My heart broke into even smaller pieces. I'm partly surprised I even still have pieces to break. I was right. She didn't remember me.

Without any hesitation I walked out the door with my head down. All I wanted to do was lay down in my bed and sleep until forever was over.

As soon as I got into my car a song came on the radio. It was Take Me Home by Jess Glynne. Listening to every lyric just made me break down and cry.

My crying was interrupted when someone knocked on my window. I looked up to see my mother. I rolled down the window but didn't say anything.

"Hi, I'm sorry that I didn't recognize who you were. You've grown so much. I didn't expect to see you so soon. In fact, I was looking for you. I mean, that's why I came back in town. I heard about what happened to your father and I'm so sorry baby. But I'm here now and I want you to know that there are reasons why I left and couldn't raise you. It was the biggest mistake of my life. I would love to tell you more about it. Maybe you could come over my place for dinner on Sunday." She said.

All I could do was shake my head up and down.

"Okay good. I'll give you my number." She said while handing me a business card. "Oh and by the way, I own this shop so if you ever want to see me I'll be here. It was nice seeing you. I have to get back to work but please don't hesitate to call me. I know you have plenty of questions." She assumed.

"No, just one." I said.

She looked shocked that I spoke to her.

"Well, okay. What's your question?" She asked.

"Could you take care of a broken soul?" I asked.

She was caught off gaurd by what I asked her. I could tell because she took a few steps back and scratched the back of her head.

"I have to go." That was all she could say before walking away.

I drove home and when I arrived nobody was at the house. It was more convenient that way. I went straight into my room and climbed into bed. I laid down in the dark looking up onto the ceiling. I didn't understand any emotions I was feeling. I wasn't angry or sad anymore. It was as if I was just existing like air. I'm here all around but can't be seen. I'm not shocked that she didn't answer my question. She doesn't strike me as the type to take care of her responsibility. After all, she abandoned her family, she abandoned me. I think I scare her. All of this only means one thing to me though. It means that I have to show up to dinner on Sunday. I think if she gets to know me she'll want to take care of me. Maybe I'll finally get the mother I've always dreamed of. I only hope that she accepts me for who I am.