Why?

Chapter 7. Love Lies

It's Friday and I have yet to attend any classes this week. Mostly because I want to escape human interactions. I don't know how much more stress I can take. The only people I can really talk to is Kendra and Leo. Kendra convinced me to go to school today because apparently I'll fail if I stop showing up. I hold on to every word she says. She understands that I need her as my motivation to complete school because without her I would have dropped out when I was fourteen.

Leo stepped in front of me and grabbed my phone out of my hand.

"Who are you avoiding?" Leo asked me.

"Avoiding? What makes you think I'm avoiding someone?" I curiously asked him.

"Because Jordan, I know you and I know how you think. So you might as well go ahead and tell me." He said.

"I'm not avoiding anyone. I'm being dead serious." I answered him.

He starred at me with an annoyed face.

"Okay Jordan." He said.

Leo dropped the conversation as he walked out the door to get into the car. The whole car ride was silent until we arrived at the school.

"It's Autumn. Now can I have my phone back." I said randomly as I parked the car and turned off the engine.

He rolled his eyes. "Who is Autumn and why are you avoiding her?"

"She's this very beautiful girl that goes to our school and she works at the café down the street from the house. I'm avoiding her because when I went to her job the other day, she met Alex and that did not end well." I said kind of in a excited tone.

"Wait, don't tell me you're stalking her." He said.

I took my keys out the ignition and opened the car door.

"Of course I'm not. Why would I stalk her if I'm avoiding her?" I said as I got out the vehicle.

He stepped out the car and walked towards me to give me the phone.

"Jordan, you act like some of the things you do actually makes sense."

I had to agree with him on that one because majority of the things I do, I don't even understand myself.

We headed our separate ways as I walked towards my psychology class. I dread going to this class because I know Autumn will be there.

I walked in with my head held down, staring at my timberlands. I can't believe I've just noticed how dirty they've gotten. The first thing I'm going to do when I get home is clean them. I hope Leo hasn't used up all of my cleaning solution.

I sat down in the back while waiting for my instructor to walk in. I couldn't help but to notice that Autumn wasn't here yet. I don't know why but I feel anxious to see her.

The teacher finally walked in the class and she was fifteen minutes late but still Autumn was not here.

A lot of time has passed by and there is only twenty minutes of class left. I grew angry because she wouldn't show up to class. I mean who does she think she is skipping class like this.

I heard the door behind me creek and a smile crept onto my face. I knew she wouldn't miss class. She seems like the type of girl who actually enjoys being at school.

I still wanted to avoid her so I put my head down. I also needed to hide this big ass smile on my face.

I heard a chair next to me move and my body teased up as I realized that she sat down next to me. I really hope and pray that she doesn't try to talk to me.

I felt chills when a hand caressed my thigh.

"Hey, babe." A voice whispered.

I almost gave in but something felt familiar. I admittedly lifted my head up and I felt nauseous when I saw who it was that was touching me.

"What the fuck, Alex?" I whispered while smacking her hand away.

"Don't curse at me. I know you haven't lost your mind." She said at me lividly.

"You're right. My bad for cursing but why are you here? IN MY CLASS." I said louder.

She turned her head slightly to the left. "Don't tell me you forgot all about my birthday."

Damn. I knew there was a reason why I shouldn't have came to school. We have ten minutes left and now I'm even more angry because my ex is right here beside me and Autumn is not.

"Of course I've forgotten. I've forgotten everything about you. Again, please tell me, who are you?" I said.

"Okay... I know you don't mean that. You only say stupid shit like that when you're upset. So talk to me about it." She said softly while reaching for my hand.

"My problem is you so leave me alone." I said while getting up because the class was ending.

"We made a promise. I'm trying to be here for you but you have to let me." She said while trying to block me from walking past her.

I started laughing. "We? Where was we when you decided to cheat? Where was this promise when my dad died? Where were you? Don't you dare fucking talk to me like you care about me cause you don't." I angrily said as I stormed out the room.

I could hear her chasing after me.

"Please let me explain what happened!" She yelled down the hallway while trying to keep up with me.

"You're five months late." I yelled back.

I made it outside and I quickly walked to my car, ready to drive off.

"Jordan, you don't understand." She yelled.

I ignored every word that was coming out her mouth.

Jordan! Jordan please! You don't understand what happened." She cried.

I finally reached my car and as I opened my door she said "I was raped."

I stopped and looked up at her crying her eyes out.

I feel so conflicted inside because I don't know if she's telling the truth or not. I see her face redder than I've ever seen. I think she's telling the truth.

"How? When? What?" Is all I could say.

I walked closer to her but then I saw Leo running towards me.

"Jordan, what's going on." He said.

His face looked angry when he saw Alex. I already knew what was about to happen. He looked at me and he looked like he was about to charge at her when tears started falling down my eyes.

"Leo, please don't." I screamed as he stepped towards her.

I ran to protect her. Leo looked at me confused and angry.

"Stop taking up for this bitch." He yelled at me.

"Don't call her a bitch." I yelled at him as I walked up and punched him in the face.

That punch didn't even scratch him and he looked at me so disappointed. Next thing I knew, everything went dark. I couldn't help but to think about what Alex said. Even though she lies so much, I can't help but to believe that she's telling the truth. Who would lie about something like that? Even if it was true, it doesn't add up to how she treated me. I just want some answers. This is too much for me to handle right now.