Aquiver | Taehyung

Chapter:36

[KIM TAEHYUNG.]

I never thought I would dread to go college like this.After all the things going on right now,I actually can't face her.Not when I feel like my heart is ripping into two at the sight of girl who used to be my whole world.She deserved so much better than this.

That stupid bet.

She thought I was with her for the sake of bet.

She was so wrong!what could I expect everyone would think like that.It was all what started the things between us but I couldn't lie the fact that I meant every little thing I did back then,I meant those kisses,I meant every words I said when we're together.It was true that I was interested in her,way before I knew her name and before the bet even started.

How could I be so stupid?

It was that bet,initially Junho wanted to be the part of that bet but I was selfish to not let him and instead challenged everyone that I would do.But a part of me knew that I wasn't interested in that bet,I was trying to save her.

But things got different.

No one knows how I felt every time I would try to tell her the truth.I tried several times but I couldn't,not when she would always look at me innocently flashing a sweet smile hoping for something good to hear.I didn't dare to tell her because I was afraid of loosing her.

I still love her,I wish If I could turn back time to make everything go back to normal.

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The look on Jimin's face when I told him everything flashes in my mind.There was a hint of disappointment on his face but he tried his best to cheer me up and said to tell her the truth.He continuously tells me to meet and apologize her soon everyday but I know I can't,even if I tell her the truth,will she believe me?will things get back to normal?will I again be able to hold her and tell I love you every morning?

He said she will understand but I'm afraid.

I'm afraid of facing her again.

There are countless of times when I stood in front of her door to tell her the truth only to return back without even ringing the door bell.A part of me thinks what if she's waiting for me to come back and make everything alright but another part of me argues she hates me for making her go through this hell.