Aquiver | Taehyung

Chapter:18

"Haneul!Are you Okay?"Jennie asks squeezing my hand.I was so lost in my own world that I flinched at her sudden action that made her look more worried.

"Jen!I'm okay.Don't worry about me too much."I squeezed her hand back giving the most genuine smile I could.

"It just that you don't seem to be yourself these days."She sighs still not convinced,"Is it about Taehyung that makes you worried?"she asks again making me shake my head violently.

"It's not like that!We're still in contact.I'm just worried about the finals test that is coming up."I couldn't help but lie,I wanted her to believe me.I feel like I've been a burden for her these days and I don't want her to worry more about my never-ending problems.

"Don't worry babe!You're going to do your best in coming finals as well."She pats my cheeks affectionately sounding a bit more convinced but a part of me knows she wasn't convinced,she still wants to know the true reason and won't let any chance to slip off.

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We were currently walking home back after doing research for our assignments.Luckily,she was my partner for this project.Otherwise I don't know what would I have been up to.After reaching my apartment,we bid goodbye to each other.She was walking the other way when she turned around,I tried to give her the most genuine smile I could to convince her I am okay which she returned with same smile.

These past few days my mind has been hazy,clouded with so many worries.I don't know who to blame but since Jennie asked if it is Taehyung? I can't help but wonder if he is really the one to be blamed since he hasn't appeared since that night.I tried to call him but he doesn't respond so I gave up,maybe he wanted to be set free from me.

It wasn't like I was trapping him anyway.

If he had said it once,I would gladly but he chose to dissapear without any words.

I was laying in my bed.I have no appetite left as I have had enough in a local restaurant while coming back so I hadn't planned cooking.It was getting comfortable being tucked in softest blanket feeling warmer but it had to disturbed when suddenly the door bell of my apartment rang.I had no option left but to wake up lazily to open the door.

As I was approaching the door,the door bell of my apartment rang again.I made a coming sound before opening it.My jaw dropped at the sight of boy standing in front me.My instinct was to get angry and rant out how dare he dissapear suddenly and appear out of nowhere.

But I simply did the opposite.

I hugged him.

My hands were engulfed around his neck.I was happy yet disappointed to see him.We both didn't talk but stayed like that,hugging each other.The warmness his body emitted was more than that of expensive blankets.

And I quite missed being engulfed in his warm hug.

After what it felt like eternity,we decided to let go of each other.He was staring at me while I stared back at him without exchanging any words.

"I'm sorry Haneul."he was the one who spoke first with what seems like a sad smile.

"Sorry for what Taehyung?"I shot back suddenly feeling the anger that was rising since he disappeared.

"Sorry for disappearing suddenly? Is it So? or Sorry for ignoring me?"By this time,I was about to raise my voice but I remained stable before continuing, "Do you know how much of a shitty week it has been for me?I was worried,so worried that I would lose my mind soon.I was scared for you.What if?Something bad happened with you.There were many thoughts going through my mind.Do you even care?I thought you were trying to ignore me!Even if you were,you could have said it once.I would have never come closer but you just left me hanging."I cried as soon as the last words slipped from my mouth,tears were falling and rolling down from my cheeks.

Just at the thought of losing him made me feel helpless.

I was surprised with my sudden outbrust but I wanted to let it out.I wanted to let him know that if he doesn't want to be any closer,Its okay.I can let him go even if it will hurt me at the end.

I think Taehyung was surprised too with my sudden outbrust as he widened his eyes before composing himself again.

"I wasn't ignoring you."He whispered before hanging his head low.