"you're worse than nicotine.."
I'm so in love with her, but she ruins me. She saids she loves me, but walks around and acts like she doesn't know me. Makes me feel like a toy she's playing with. On day she's so love with me, then the other she's out and about like if nothing ever happened between us. My friend's say she's no good for me, and that she is just using me. And I know, but the worse part is that I can't seem to leave her. I'm addicted to her. And she knows it. She knows I'll come crawling back, into her arms, like if nothing ever happened. I want to stop this addiction. She's completely taking over me. I look down at my hands and let my tears fall, on the cold cement floor. I look up and to my surroundings. Last night she came over to my place and took me out to a club. That's all I remember. I sit on the floor and pull my legs into my chest.
Why does she always do this to me? No, why do I let her do this to me?
"Jimin get up, Alice called and said to come pick you up.."
I look from my knees hugged tightly to my chest and see Taehyung. He was the one to warn me from what she would do to me, and I ignored him. Now, he's here helping me. I nod slowly and try to get up. He lends a hand and picks me up with a tug. He pulls me into a hug and I cry in his shoulder.
Why didn't I listen to him?
"Let's take you home, Jimin hyung.." He said with a slightly smile.
Taehyung takes me home, and Jin hyung and the others were here too. I'm to ashamed to look at him and the others in the eyes. They all warned me of her, and I ignored all of them. I sit on the couch and Jin hyung starts to scold me in a loving way, as the others nod in agreement with him. I don't look up at all. Finally after all the scolding, I look up at all of them. They are all here because they care for me. I tear up and smile lightly. They look at me with pity and all huddle up and hug me. They want what is best for me, and here I am going around worrying them, and wondering where the hell I went to. They all leave after comforting me, I thank them all, and say goodbye.
I sit on the couch and stare at the black screen of the tv. I just sit there, doing nothing. Breathing in and out, then I hear a knock on the door. I get up slowly and walk over. Opening the door to reveal Alice, with a big bright smile. A smile that easily draws me in. She luring me in, slowly taking over my attention, she has it and she knows it. She comes closer and tiptoes to peck my lips.
"I taste you on my lips and I can't get rid of you.
So I say damn your kiss and the awful things you do.."
The taste of her lips completely captivate me. I begin to kiss her back and place my hands on her waist. She moans softly and I pull away. I think on what I'm doing and back away. She's doing it again. She's taking over me again, just by one single kiss. She comes closer and clings on me. Hugging my waist, kissing my chest softly. Looks up at me and smirks. I tingle at the feeling and back away. I turn away to walk off and she grabs my hand.
"Jiminie~ don't you love me?" She says cutely.
I gulp and turn back. Smashing my lips on hers and moan when she kisses back. I pull her closer to my body and enjoy the feeling of her body close to mine. She giggles into the kiss and whispers.
"I knew you missed me.." She looks into my eyes.
She stands proudly, knowing she had won, she has me back. The cycle never ending. As she kisses me, I cry. Letting all my tears fall and roll off my cheek.
"'Cause you could never love me back.."
I don't need her but I want her so badly. I love her so much, but she doesn't love me back, and I can't seem to leave. Wanting to forget her so anxiously, I'm so desperate to forget her. I'm addicted to her and she knows it, like someone addicted to nicotine.
"But I need it so bad,
'cause you're worse than nicotine.."
A/n: This one-shot is based on the song Nicotine by Panic at the disco. One of my favorite songs honestly..
